I am going to take this thread in a new direction for a while in our search for the truth.
Mav claims that once you believe you can never not believe. He has accused those of us that changed our minds of never believing to the level that he believed. In other words our belief was inferior to his.
I though it would be helpfull to those that may take him seriously to hear from a few other people who deconverted from christianity based on the evidence.
For the next few weeks i will post some of the better deconversion stories i have run across:
Out of Fundamentalism
By Mickey Williams
I am smack in the middle of my journey out of fundamentalism. However it has been a process that has been going on for about 5 years now. You don't just throw off 30 plus years of indoctrination all at once. Also, lets be honest, it hurts. I wanted to, and did for 30+ years, believe that this book was God's words to us. I wanted to believe that there was a loving God, who could and would help me through the problems of life. I wanted to believe that if I was in God's will I could expect his blessings on my life, and it hurt like hell to do all I was expected to do, and then still find my world crashing down around me. It hurt to pray, and pray, and pray, and never get one answer to any of those prayers, (except NO I suppose), which everyone is so happy to bring up to me.
Let me be totally upfront about something here. I understand how hard it is to question your or your family's long held faith. It is probably the hardest thing a person will ever have to do, to question what has been accepted on faith, as absolute truth, by a lifetime of friends and family and community, and which you believed yourself. I admit the easy road is to simply not rock the boat. Most of my friends and family are this way. They have never even thought about investigating the Bible, or the claims in the Bible, nor have they, or will they, ever investigate it for themselves, or look at their faith with a critical eye. Just the thought of it makes them cut the conversation short. They have believed and accepted the things they have been taught as the absolute truth, and as long as life doesn't throw anything totally unbearable, or totally at odds with everything they believe, then there is no reason to think differently. All of their friends have accepted this same faith. All of their family have accepted this faith, their mothers, their fathers, their aunts and uncles, and grandmothers and grandfathers, and on, and on. However what should a person do, when they begin to realize that something is just not right here, something is simply not as I was taught that it should be? What do you do when real life does not match with the faith you have been taught? There is a reason why there is that little nagging question in the back of your mind which is telling you that something about all of this is just not adding up, and itâs not the devil.
I was "saved", or "born again", when I was 9 years old, and I am 49 now. My father was a preacher and pastor, and has been for 30+ years. My Father in law is also a Baptist preacher. We grew up in the Methodist Church, and then later we joined the Baptist denomination. For the past 30 years I, (pretty much like anyone else around me), accepted that what I had been taught by my parents and family about God and the Bible was the absolute truth, based on absolute undeniable facts. Anything in the Bible which seemed to be contradictory, or was impossible to understand, or reconcile with the morals of the Church today, were simply ignored, overlooked, or filed away as something which could not be understood by fallible men, about an infallible God. To keep questioning the unknown areas, or to really seek answers to the hard scriptures, or to still harbor doubts about the scriptures which made no sense, was seen as a lack of faith in God.
I was taught that the Holy Bible is the inerrant, infallible, inspired, Word of God, directly from God himself. What did this mean exactly? Well it is pretty self-explanatory really. First of it is attested that this book has no errors in history, philosophy, nor any incorrect idiom of science, or natural history. It is Godâs very own words, or at the least his words as dictated to man, as the doctrine would imply, so then the implication is that a perfect God, would have sent us a perfect Word. Secondly, to hold to this position one has to accept that âinfallibilityâ means that its message is consistent from beginning to end, and does not suffer the problems of modern books whose ideas and philosophies and viewpoints must undergo revisions every few years when new data becomes available or when new science proves old theories wrong, or simply because human enlightenment has advanced the values of society. Lastly you must believe that âinspirationâ, only in the case of the Bible (and this case only) means that; âthese words were breathed directly from Godâs mouth to menâs ears, and put directly down on paperâ. As you can imagine this is a very, very weighty measure of any book, much less one written by many different authors over thousands of years, and assembled by independent church leaders, councils, debate and compromise as the Bible has come down to us. This is however the view of the Bible, which I was taught to believe in, and accept unequivocally as the first tenant of faith; anything else was heresy. However, does the Bible really hold to this standard? Does it meet and pass all critical analysis? Are we allowed to use our God given common sense, and critical thinking when evaluating this book, as we would with any other book in the world?
To even begin to understand the Bible, I was taught that you must first start with a few preconceptions right up front, which must be accepted unequivocally (even without proof) as absolute truths. This is that Jesus is the son of God, who gave his life for us, and rose again to save us, and the Bible is Godâs infallible words to man, and our guide in spiritual things. Then with those pre-conditions accepted and set in stone as the saying goes, you can then hopefully begin to interpret the supporting evidence for those "absolute truths", and the supporting evidence of course is the Bible itself. Doing it that way does sort of help to pre-determine the outcome before you even start doesnât it? However many Christians, like myself, even with the preconceptions set in stone in our minds, do still have trouble interpreting the Bible, even with a strong faith in the basic principles there are still many things which just don't seem to add up. When in doubt about a scripture, or when there are things stated in Old Testament scriptures that we would have moral objections to today, or if there seem to be contradictory statements in other scriptures, we simply fall back to the original presuppositions: Jesus is the son of God, who died and rose again to save us, and the Bible is Godâs infallible words to man, and our guide in spiritual things. Therefore it follows, and in fact we are told at that point, that it must be us who simply can't understand the things of God, not that the Bible may actually be contradictory, or actually morally repugnant. This type of reasoning of course, can become a very tenuous juxtaposition to rely on at times, and thus it leads many people to simply decide to ignore the hard scriptures, or the contradictions, precisely because they can't be reconciled with the preconceptions we have all accepted, that Jesus is the son of God who died and rose again to save us; and the Bible is Godâs infallible words to man and our guide in spiritual things. We are forever in the mode of defending the very book, the very evidence that is supposed to be the proof and foundation of our Faith, and then in the end we wind up admitting that a lot of this book we simply cannot understand, nor will we ever understand, and somehow this too is in God's plan, because he is God, and he is perfect and his book is perfect and we are not perfect. Does that make perfect sense?
You will have to admit, that this is exactly the opposite of what you and I, and everyone else in the world does, when it comes to anything else in our lives, such as in the study or examination of things like scientific research, or in legal matters, or in the proof of anything in this world which "claims" to have the absolute truth. We don't assume guilt before concrete evidence is presented in a trial. We don't assume someone has absolute truth even before they can prove that they have the absolute truth. If I were of another religion, and I claimed to have the absolute truth, wouldnât you ask me to prove that I have absolute truth? Yet with the Bible we all accept as absolute truth, even though no proof has been provided, based simply on the premise that others before us, or our parents accepted it as absolute truth, or that my family accepts it as absolute truth. Shouldn't we demand more?
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