what to do when you're screwed

I knew a trader once...he used to talk about how he started out. He had sold a business and pocketed a half million $. He started trading and said, "I turned that into 25 grand." Last I saw him, he had been known to have 100k days. (don't know how he's done since 2001 -- it's been rough on everyone).
 
Originally posted by Gordon Gekko
well, well, well.... the days i never thought would come a few years ago are here now.

i made a lot of money by the end of 1999. i guess you could say i had beginner's luck. i've been living off my account and trying to learn how to trade ever since. i always thought i would eventually figure it out. but now it's 3 (almost 4) years later, and i still suck.

well now i'm down to only a few thousand dollars. even if i were to double my account, i'd still only have like 9k..so big deal. and nevermind doubling it, i can't make 10 cents...so 100% isn't gonna happen any time soon. every time i trade i end up losing money. i traded today and lost money. i'd be better off making no trades at all.

the only hope i have left is to sell my brand new car that is paid for. by the way, it just got broken into 3 days ago and it's all f#cked up now. luckily, i only have to pay $300 and i think my insurance will cover the rest. at this point, i'm thinking i should sell the car after it gets fixed and put the 20k in the bank. i should also close my trading account and put what's left in the bank as well. then, i should get a job to pay the bills until i do know how to trade.

by no means am i saying i'm quitting. i will never quit. i will still be here on the boards. i'm just not going to let myself lose everything i have. my point is just that i need to stop blowing my money while i don't know what the hell i'm doing. the pathetic thing is, it's almost like i know everything, BUT AT THE SAME TIME I KNOW NOTHING! i've read all the books, made probably thousands of trades...yet i never found something that works for me.

some of you may think i'm a total newbie that still doesn't know the ropes, but i can assure you i do. someone told me to read "trading in the zone." i did, and i already knew what it says. i know the stock market is really like a casino. i know anything can happen at any time. i don't make predictions. anyway, i'm not going to get into proving myself. i already know i know a lot....

i guess the bright side is i've learned a lot about the markets for my age. i'm 24 and i know more about the markets than my father...and he's the one who first got my interested in this.

to demonstrate how pathetic i am, lately i've been paying for gas with nickels and dimes (literally) so that i don't have to withdraw money from my trading account. i guess i've been hoping that i'd be able to turn myself around. but i can see that it just isn't happening.

well anyway, i'm just wondering if anyone else has been in my situation before? i'm sure everyone has their low points. i'd like to know if some of you out there were once in my shoes and you're now profitable? how did you get out of my situation? i have a lot of respect for you guys that have been able to figure this game out.

thanks

I was one foot out the door, but finally found someone who could take all that knowledge in my head and get it organized into one successful system. Ever since then I have been successful in trading and training.
 
Originally posted by m_c_a98
What are you trying to trade? what market?
good question. for most of my trading "career" i traded stocks. as i said, i never thought i would lose as much as i did. so when the wonderful PDT rule came about and my account dipped below 25k, i was pretty pissed. i then started entering at the close and holding overnight. that way i could at least trade and not violate the PDT rule. what a bad f*cking rule by the way. anyway, i liked trading overnights and i had some good ideas, but i found it hard to control my trades with the gaps. yes, some gaps go your way and some don't...but it was hard to control losses according to plan when you get gaps.

basically, ever since the PDT rule came out and i went under 25k, i've not been trading much. i still watch the markets and think of ideas, but i don't make as many trades as i used to. i know the eminis are an option for me..and i've traded them a little, but when you don't know what you're doing, you can get wiped out fast trading those things. so this is why i'm thinking i should just sell the car, close the trading accounts, put it all in the bank....get a job, save up some more money and in the meantime think about the markets some more. i'll trade again when i come up with something profitable..
 
why don't you post some of your most recent daytrades (and why you took the trade) and let us have a look at them. perhaps the community can shed some light on your trading funk.
 
Originally posted by Threei
I was in your shoes.

In some regards it was better: I had 11 thousands left in my trading account and money for like 6 months of living. In some regards it was worse. You are 24, you can get a job. I was 37, with wife and two kids, in the foreign country, without right to work (my immigration case wasn't finalized yet) and with no place to return. if case fails. So if I didn't make it in trading it would be total life catastrophe.

I made it. I took twice that 11 thousands to 17 and right back down. Then I broke this barrier and from the moment account went over 25K I started withdrawing money for a living from it. It went to 70K first year after turnaround and over 200K second year (I still kept 25-30K in trading account itself). It IS doable. Not easy though.

I can't tell you in two lines or two posts how and what I did... for several reasons. First, it would take longer than that. Second, there is book in a process of publishing that describes both, all the mental tricks I used to keep myself within right state of mind and the trading system that I worked out for myself. I am prohibited from posting the cotent of it.

Still, there are some things I would like to tell you. I read some of the threads you started. here is what I see:

1. You are overcomplicating things. I know you heard many times about keeping it simple, but did you really HEAR it? All the complicated things you read and tried in fact should finally lead you to some pretty simplistic approach.
2. You are looking for some answer outside of you. Yeah, I know, you heard many times that answer is within you, but you still try to find that system or indicator or their combination that would work. There is NO system that fits all. You want some formal things to work outside of you, so to speak... so that you would just set those things in motion with your entry. But it's not the market that gives you money or takes it. It's you who does both. (again, I know, you heard it...) Some of my friends and co-workers do use systems but they have amazing feel for what is going on. They watch what happens and while their entries and exits are within their system's parameters they still apply good dose of discretion. You can call it intuition... but it comes from big experience, from thoussands of traxdes and, most importantly, from watching some very basic things.
3. Putting 1 and 2 together... See, all those complicated things you read while taught you plenty, also did certain harm. They took you away from the roots. Try to do something very simple: watch the movement on the tape, and on 1 min chart for a while, trying to get a feel. Apply any system you want as long as it's not too cumbersome but watch what happens at the points of your entry, exit, between them... and listen to the action, try to find that resonance within you when something clicks and things become clear. That's when it becomes both, simple and from within you.

I know it's not easy to dwcribe in words... but anyway, no matter how I put it, you need to feel it yourself.

If something in what I wrote sounds harsh - I didn't mean it. It's just how it is. And after all, no matter how harsh anyone sounds, the market does it more cruel.

I'll finish on this, it's already way too long...

Vad

Hey Vad,

Are you the guy from Realitytrader.com? If so, what is the name of your book going to be and when is it coming out?
 
Originally posted by ANCHOR


Hey Vad,

Are you the guy from Realitytrader.com? If so, what is the name of your book going to be and when is it coming out?

I am. Title is in discussion yet, working version is Tape Reading Techniques: A Trader's Jorney to Reality. Not sure on the time line yet, optimists say till the end of this year, realists count on Q1 of 2003 :)

Vad
 
Originally posted by Threei


I am. Title is in discussion yet, working version is Tape Reading Techniques: A Trader's Jorney to Reality. Not sure on the time line yet, optimists say till the end of this year, realists count on Q1 of 2003 :)

Vad

Tape Reading Techniques, sounds interesting. There is never any good books dealing with tape reading. I'll be looking for it. You think you will offer it on the site when it comes out?

Sorry for taking your thread off topic Gordon. I'll stop.
 
Originally posted by ANCHOR


Tape Reading Techniques, sounds interesting. There is never any good books dealing with tape reading. I'll be looking for it. You think you will offer it on the site when it comes out?

Honestly, no idea how distribution is handled... but in any case it will be posted on our website.
It's about tape reading in its original sense - system designed in times of Jesse Livermore and adapted to today's market (I consider it necessary to say about it to distinguish from the idea of tape reading as pure staring at T&S)

Vad
 
Well, I have not really shared any of my personal story here, but since it is so damn similar to GG's, I figure I ought to give GG some support..

When I started trading in 1997, I also had the initial surge of beginner's luck...I had the opportunity to trade some borrowed money, a significant amount and take a sizable draw from the profits...In my first two months I made a killing just doing the typical newbie buy the tech stocks that are going higher...In those days, I mainly traded DELL, Ascend Communications, Netscape, Apple...This is over 5 years ago, prior to the real daytrading boom, but right around the time that Block Trading was making headlines and Harvey Houtkin and the SOES Bandits were popular...

Anyway, to make a long story short...Within a few months, I bought a new car for 25k(lol), I was 24 years old as well...I started thinking like I was some sort of a King and all sorts of idiotic bs that still nauseates me 5 years later...RIght after I bought that damn car, I lost a huge amount trading a bunch of NSCP overnight...I then proceeded to go into a period of insane equity fluctuations...up, down, up, down, etc, etc...It all caught up to me in 1999...All of my bad habits caught up to me and I found myself in early 2000 in a similar situation to what GG is into now...It is a gut wrenching experience that is made worse by the fact that family and friends KNOW you are not making it...You want to scream at them and say "I know what I am doing", but you know that you do and you don't and the same time...I can identify with that...

The biggest problem you have GG is that you are "scared money" now...You are probably trading with the knowledge of every single tick and how it will affect your living expenses...When you get down low enough on the account equity, you have absolutely no pain threshold and without that pain threshold, trading is an emotional beast...The worst thing you can do for your long term trading plan(which it seems like you want to be doing for the longer term) is to continue to trade even when you are emotionally damaged...Once you return to trading, you are going to have to work it out of your system for a few months...You are going to have to forget the bad habits you developed when you were, more than likely, living and dying by the ticks...That is the biggest danger you have by continuing to trade...You are now destroying your mind with it, so its best to sell the car, put the money in the bank, do something else for a year of eighteen months...In the meantime, just become a casual observer of the markets...Remove yourself from the emotional need to have money in the market and then you will start to find your answers...
 
Originally posted by vulture
Anyway, to make a long story short...Within a few months, I bought a new car for 25k(lol), I was 24 years old as well...I started thinking like I was some sort of a King and all sorts of idiotic bs that still nauseates me 5 years later...RIght after I bought that damn car, I lost a huge amount trading a bunch of NSCP overnight...I then proceeded to go into a period of insane equity fluctuations...up, down, up, down, etc, etc...It all caught up to me in 1999...All of my bad habits caught up to me and I found myself in early 2000 in a similar situation to what GG is into now...It is a gut wrenching experience that is made worse by the fact that family and friends KNOW you are not making it...You want to scream at them and say "I know what I am doing", but you know that you do and you don't and the same time...I can identify with that...
predicament is the word, vulture. i can identify with you totally..your car situation and everything. the worst part is definitely friends and family. anyone who knows me knows i'm into the markets. i don't discuss my trading much with anyone though because it just causes problems. i've learned to not say anything if i have a up day or a down day. if i sell my car and/or get a job, that will be the worst. the bright side is, i have zero debt, unlike most people. all my friends are in debt. so it's not like they're in any better situation than me.

what kind of car did you buy? heh.. and did you end up selling it? buying the car might have been a blessing in disguise for me. if i didn't buy it, i probably would have lost the money. at least now i can sell it and i have some left.

"I know what I am doing", but you know that you do and you don't and the same time...I can identify with that.

i can relate to that a lot. i feel like i know so much, but at the same time, if that's true, why can't i make money? it's tough.. in the end, i just tell myself this..... that quote that goes something like, whatever doesn't kill you, makes you stronger.. it's so true. in the short term, we don't want any problems in our lives. but in the long term, it makes you a stronger person. so although this sucks for me right now, maybe i can learn something from it.
 
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