O - So we open up right in the middle of the overnight range. 2 minutes into the open, the right tick stops moving and this lasts for at least a minute. No indication that my data is down, but I hardly doubt we ran out of traders looking for trades!
A - Getting into the long a bit late here because of the data problem earlier. Once the trade is on, I notice my auto bracket for exits isn't set for some reason, but I did have trouble loading up my charts this morning, so I better just get out right away and my exit is exactly at my entry price. I take a loss on the commissions so I start my day at -$4.
B - Squeezed in here is a short. Of course the short should have been at exactly 73.50, and I am kicking myself for not taking this. I know my stop is so well defined, and there is no excuse then to not take that trade. Getting in here, already 3 points away from where I should makes me scared, and I exit for a point loss on the next bar.
C - Since this short is clearly working now, I re-enter here, and exit on the same bar just because. I keep sliding my profit target down and it gets hit, but secretly, I am happy to be out for a profit so I now sit at +$38.
D - Price keeps coming down, as I expect it to do after my exit!

But it does stop here at a rather random place but oh well.
E - Here we get to within a point of the OH and 1.25 points away from the previous high. I do nothing.
F - I consider a long here because I assume we have a bounce at the same level as at D, but I hesitate which is a good thing as its in the middle of nowhere. I am just too eager to trade, I want to be in a trade, but then when I don't take the trade I should, I end up taking much worse trades that often lose and then suck out whatever confidence I have and therefore can no longer put on the trades I should.
G - I do nothing here.
H - During this bar below you see a long entered, and an exit for 2 ticks. On the one hand we did have a bounce off the OL again, but then look at all these overlapping bars, right in the middle of chop, and each bar has a lower high, so I'm not exactly excited about my long. When a bounce from a level happens, it should go somewhere, not go sideways for 6 minutes.
I - Se we eventually penetrate the OL, and stop right here. This 54.50 level has been penetrated before, so I'd say the level is somewhat fuzzy now in terms of being exact, so its hard to know exactly what to be looking for, especially since the PDL is just below, but after hitting the low here, the rise up is fast. Its over 5 points in less than a minute.
J - So because of that super quick rejection of 54, I feel very strongly about the long above that huge bar. Of course once I'm in the trade, I start to consider that after such a big move, almost 8 points in less than 2 minutes, there will more than likely be a fairly significant retrace which won't invalidate the move up, but easily stop me out. So I exit for just over a point profit.
I think I'm at +$60 now.
K - Sure enough, we do get a retrace, but it only goes 2 points below my entry price.
L - So this long is really working now, and I decide to get into the move. Of course now it has gone over 10 points, and we do have a bit of overlap, so right after my entry, price starts to drop.
M - Here is my exit, and I'm sad to say, it had too much wishing and hoping and praying behind it. It wasn't even that my loss target was hit, I dragged my profit target down since I knew this trade wasn't working and I just wanted to be out at the top of a wave, so essentially the smallest loss possible. My loss target was actually dragged way down as I didn't want it hit.
I am now at +$11.
N - I do nothing for almost 30 minutes, but here looks like a good place to try a long again. Honestly, I'm used up by now. I am mad for not taking that very first short at the top, I am mad for getting out of my trades too early when I said I wouldn't, and I of course took that last long in the middle of nowhere that didn't work.
But at any rate, I take one more trade and the entry is hit, but my gosh, it goes sideways for too long, so I'm out on the next bar for 2 ticks profit. (by too long, I of course mean seconds, which is long for me when in the middle of a trade) Only 3 minutes later price shoots up like crazy, without me of course.
I know I said I would not take these small profits, but look at what I'm doing. This low here is even a perfect double bottom to the tick with the low at "I". In no time this was a 10 point trade, so $200, but aye, I sit at only +$17.
Its amazing to me how long a minute is when I am in a trade. Every tick that doesn't go in my favor is almost like another death blow and after a few hits, I'm desperate to get out.
SUMMARY
Well I guess I'm done for the day.
All I think about is that I'm down $2,500 so far and how I want to turn it around but clearly I'm not taking advantage of the opportunity. The money loss isn't critical, so that's good, but its a blow to the ego, and I am using it as a yard stick so to speak to guage my progress and hence purposefully knocking myself down. I feel as if I used up the $2,500 on stupid trading mistakes, and now its imperative that I do things right. But when in the moment, I always second guess myself.
I feel that if I could start at the begining again now, and set myself a limit of using $2,500 to play around with, I could do much better. The account could easily take this loss again, so this isn't really a big factor, and I could do this, set aside some more money, but there is a huge amount of doubt. I thought that other day that if I set aside $200 each day, each for 3 trades at a 3 point loss each, but make sure that the profit will be at least greater than the loss, then this would give me something I can live with, and it would more than likely actually prove profitable.
I know that Db teaches that we should be trading well, not mindful of the P&L, and so in some ways I am doing everything wrong and this is taking a toll on the ego. Ego is of course the first thing we have to leave at the door when getting into this trading business, so I'm doing this wrong as well.
All I really have is taking REV trades at extreme levels, not even looking for confirmation, just taking the damn reversal trade. So I think there is no way that this could be this easy, but for the most part, it seems to work quite well, hence why I have this constant internal struggle. I do see where it doesn't work, so this makes me scared, but at the same time, knowing that my exit is well defined, I do think that its statistically positive in the long run. Should I be going forward with just this though?
Sigh.. looking at the chart, my long at "N" looks so good. Price only ever went against me 2 ticks.
I want to make this work far too bad. I remember when I was trying to learn how to be successful with women, since this was a huge learning curve for me, when I finally stopped caring but any individual outcome, overall success greatly improved. Trading is so similar. I had to re-invent myself to become successful with women, and I can see this same thing is necessary for trading. I'm not sure why I'm fighting it so much.
Well, my day ends at +$17.