I'll be bothered when I'm dead ?? you understand no brain function, so not bothered about anything right ?? Don't believe in any religion at all, hate it all, so don't believe / need after life to stop me worrying about dying.
When I am dying, whether it's of Covid or bleeding out falling down a mountain solo climbing some V Diff's or Freezing doing winter solo climbing or crashing MTB middle of the night on my own or any of the other crazy shit I do, I won't be thinking, shit I've wasted years of my life over a nothing. ( dying in my sleep and not getting to find out my last thoughts worries me more )
Start focusing on the Living, death is guaranteed and seldom pretty stop wasting your life in FEAR!!
Everybody is afraid and everybody lives in fear. You are just in denial because you are afraid of being afraid. LOL Otherwise why do you frantically exaggerate the benefits of Vitamin D based on just ONE study and beachgoing saying they can save lives based on zero studies?