The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result.
Neke, don't be in a such a hurry to "blow-out your account", or in your case, hit your yearly account stop-loss. You still have a pretty good sized account right now. You think you feel bad right now...think about how you would feel if you hit your yearly stop-loss. You should consider taking time off from your trading to stop and smell the roses and re-group.
Now is not the time to get aggressive. Instead, since your trading is obviously "off the tracks", I would suggest you drop down to a much smaller position size, and focus on developing your EDGE, CONSISTENCY, and DISCIPLINE.
Consistency, Discipline, and an Edge are to a trader what oil is to a car. And you sir, with all due respect, have neither consistency nor discipline. And, it's debatable whether you have an edge.
Think about it for a second, what is the point of trading if you can not achieve consistent results in your trading? You would be better of going to Vegas. I know I would not want to play this "game" if I had no EDGE. I can think of a million other things to do with my money other than trading without an EDGE, CONSISTENCY, and DISCIPLINE.
Consistency and Discipline are the easiest to overcome if you have a true and good Edge. Developing a good edge requires keen knowledge of how markets really work. A good edge is OBJECTIVE, SIMPLE, ROBUST enough to work on ALL MARKETS, and has, "thus far", withstood the "test of time" (I don't really believe that edges last forever but that is another story. I'm happy with "now"). Unfortunately, it took me years to find an edge that consistently works on all markets, and all time frames, but it can be done.