Last night, after a many year long journey, I pretty much called it quits. I had had enough, I felt I just couldn't get it. Pretty damn certain I couldn't.
Well, thanks to my guardian angel I was directed to do something. What, at this point, I don't think is terribly important.
What I learned was. Oh man was it. I've spent the last few hours trying to figure out what to say, how to describe it. So far I'm not at all satisified that my description is accurate to my experience, but I feel like I gotta try.
Anticapating has NOTHING to do with what happens next. Anticipating is a NOW process. Somehow I got the very misguided notion in my head that as a trader I needed to connect the NOW with the FUTURE. And, worse, I had no idea how to do this or what it would look like. This had provided me with a not inconsiderable amount of physical and mental pain. As I became more skilled at the individual components of the method but not seeing it come together, life became tortuous.
We, as traders are not responsible for the connection from the now to the future; that is the markets job. Let the market do it's job and you do yours.
I realize this sounds totally abstract, philosophical, and useless. I make no apologies. I know how I looked at charts yesterday afternoon and how I look at them today. I can't go back. Something in my head changed and I can't even reconstruct the process that caused me the pain. The neural path ways have be re-arranged.
I do apologize if this is off syllabus a bit, but I know from talking with various of you that we had shared a fair bit of emotion on this subject. If you can relate to my words in any way, here is my suggestion: at least while your trading, partition off that part of your brain which believes that what you're doing has something to do with figuring out what is going to happen next. The difference between prediction and anticipation is where your focus lies (lay?, never was worth a rat's ass at grammar).Is your focus on NOW (anticipation) or what's going to happen next (predictions).
Please understand that this in no way contradicts the idea of "what must come next". If it seems like a contradiction, I have great news for you: you just found what's between you and ultimate success.