So I'm going to make a few posts as a follow up on what happened since my last, in the interest of transparency.
I basically had a psychological breakdown (of sorts) after the Fed induced loss in the end of March, when I started distrusting and disbelieving everything I did. Already then, I had completely failed to make any use of the COVID volatility. It's pretty much documented on these pages and an interesting case study in a way if you can bear the trade entry noise.
It seemed like any trade I did would fail. The reason: Switching between different new strategies (sometimes insufficiently tested or that I otherwise was uncommitted to). To a lesser extent also because some other work demanded a lot of my attention, and my GF having certain issues (I will leave that out). Finally, my source of alpha got cut as Ransquawk decided to remove their 1 min delayed stream. The price for their realtime feed is not worth 300 GBP for the kind of trading I did which is to hike on major news related moves.
The feel of despair made me take out most money and just leave a sentinel amount behind. What's the point of having massive USD exposure when I'm not profiting?
My CFD account is actually in the green YTD as denominated in USD, lol, as attached image shows. Haven't calculated the currency effects yet which I suspect are a net drain, I did convert most USD before most of the trip down. The worst stuff happened on some other accounts and have since rebounded, and I'm fairly flat for the year in total.
I will add 1-2 more posts in the coming days detailing how I changed as a trader and my too new to say it works (but actually committed to) strategy. I don't intend to keep a journal next year as at this point I feel everything works fine and follows a plan.