Hello again, first of all thanks to all of you that took your time to reply to my thread. I never once thought this journey would be easy. I knew right off the bat that it would be extremely hard and experienced how hard it is several times.
Ofcourse, I had/have no guidance, no mentor ( I don't even know how real mentors are found to be honest and why they would be willing to mentor someone in the first place unless the mentee is a relative or a really close friend, since it costs them their time= money and at the same time they do not owe you anything in the first place).
Next, my former career, was in the shipping industry. I was working onboard vessels as an officer, so I spent a good portion of my adult life, onboard a ship. And yes, I hated it. I stopped doing it, with a few years worth of living expenses available. And this might be a contributing factor to my failure, among others, the lack of a stream of income.
So, I started this pursuit (wouldnt call it a career since I didn't manage to be successful in it and earn a living through it), in hope of escaping the "hamster wheel". Coming from poverty, my goal was/is, to live a good life. Do I like trading besides the promise of money? Yes, I do. But, it brings the worst out of me hence the monetary results.
Then when it comes to paper trading. I tried it. Did I do it methodically and well planned? No, I did not. I was/am way too calm when paper trading, losses do not affect me, price fluctuations do not affect me. I am a completely different person when trading live.
Regarding statistics. My win percentage is 64.5% in 2600 trades, which means, well nothing. Over the course of 2.5 years my total loss amounts to approximately 3500 euro. These losses, were accumulated over the course of, 4 days. 2 days (1500 euro) while trading equities in Feb 2022 with IBKR (revenge traded the result) and the next was on this Monday and Tuesday (same pattern, same result).
After reading through all your comments, I am probably destined to fail.