Don't blame your journal and other stuff for distracting you. That is not the problem.
Here are your problems:
1. You take more pride in your fake account than your real account. Stop focusing on your fake account. If that fake account was live you would probably be experiencing similar problems. Fake accounts are never a measure of actual skill unless the fake account is automated, in which case, results will be similar to live trading. Don't let the success of your fake account impact your decision making on the live account.
2. Take profits, for your accounts sake. If you can rack up $1000 in a day on your trades, that is a huge gain for your account size. Your system needs to let you take profits. Money management.
There are two rules in trading, if you don't follow them you will lose.
- Don't lose
- Take your profits and keep them
3. Determine the probability of trades going in your favor before pulling back and becoming a loser. You should tweak your 'system' to take advantage of this probability.
If 60-80% of your trades work at first, you should take some profits earlier than you normally would to capture profits and buy the risk on the remainder of your position...
At this point, any amount of profits give your account a nice % boost. Next week, try taking profits and walking away. You'll probably be up $1000 by the end of the week.
4. I don't think you are reading the tape. You are expecting your winners to keep running when they have no reason to. Why should the market have continued to trade higher yesterday afternoon? Obama's speech was well received? No. People do not want to aggressively buy the market right now. Take profits on longs more quickly than you would on shorts. Your system does not seem to adapt to market conditions, and that is why it is failing. Winners do not run forever in choppy, volatile markets. The probability of the market closing at highs is low in this market. Perhaps your system was designed in a bull market, where winners can run? Backtested systems fail. The market changes, you must adapt.
I mean look at the facts. You were making money in the bull market, and ever since the market topped, you've been draining your account. Why hasn't coach mentioned this?