Honestly dude, you're going through some tough shit right now and the last thing you want to do is trade. Really. I do understand that you want to distract yourself from all this stuff by going back to your old life, but don't.I actually bought an SPX 3850 Put in my Ira this morning which expires today. Yep, one contract. I paid 15 cents for it. I might have to kiss that 15 bucks goodbye. But I just wanted to be involved in some way, no matter how small. But it will be some time before I get back to my specialty, which is looking for tight consolidations in stocks that are moving on unusually high volume. My mind just isn't ready for that.
You'll be back to full size quicker that you'd think and when you're already stressed out and you have to babysit a losing position on top of that your mental will go down the dumpster.
Unless you need to trade to pay your bills, do something else to center yourself and get back on track.
Visit a dog shelter and walk one of the dogs from time to time. Build the Titanic out of matchsticks, start painting, play videogames everything that is completely meaningless and keeps your mind busy is good.
You will need your energy soon to deal with your old mans situation and the last thing you want to do is thinking about that fucked up short gamma position that is blowing up in your face right now.
Think about why you trade and if it is not for the edge, just don't do it. Trading during exceptional mental situations will lead to complete disaster. Absolute no go