Quote from Zuizo: I would like to say, if you enter meditation with an open heart, with sincerity, and courage... then you will find your own way, do not fear.
Very well said, from a place of experience it sounds. I was speaking to a friend today who wants desperately to change the life she & her husband lead, and has made many steps towards doing so, but each step is fraught with anxiety when a piece of the puzzle doesn't quite fit the way it "should". Fear will be there, but watching it and seeing its positive intention, as Seykota's method might posit, moves one towards the leap into the unknown. I need to remind myself of your words often.
BUT PLEASE... do *not* pay for a guide. It is a dysfunctional desperate relationship.
This I too found be true through personal experience. There is much good to be gained, but as my awareness sharpened through my own work and growing confidence, the darker side of "the situation" became more and more oppressive until I was forced to acknowledge what I had been pushing out of sight. I had walked into a gilded cage of my own making.
Meditation IS the first and last freedom... Dependence on a guide or group defeats the very essence of meditation.(emphasis amg's)
And therein lies the secret-- to be one's own guide-- be it in meditation or trading-- means to develop and trust in our own experience. A guide or group can serve as a catalyst, but like a crutch once a sprain has healed, should be set aside.
One thing a group
can help in is to be a touchstone for the ego. Ego interjects slyly, and ever more slyly, as awarenessand proper use of the mind is sharpened. So easy to fool ourselves with only our own self in the mirror, without others to reflect our projections. I am intrigued by Seykota's
Trading Tribe Process as a possible way to work on this. I've done a similar process before, but on the interpersonal level, and it was awful, simply awful. Much of the "mirroring" was instead simply projections of other's crud, compounding a messy mess even further (lol). But it has promise if done well.
If you feel the need for a guide, allow it to come naturally, perhaps along the way you will meet an individual who you will befriend, a relationship of connectedness may form and a sharing of meditation may naturally occur.
Hope is a four letter word whose use I don't often allow, but for this I will make an exception!
Ana Maria
You know this already, but I hope others see how everything we've touched on relates not only to meditation but to trading.