My first blow up was caused by averaging down, lesson learned. My next b/u was being over leveraged, and the final time was from revenge trading. The final two were what I call personality quirks, and the first was simply a lack of knowledge.
While I get my finances in order I will have time to see if I can paper trade successfully for months on end.
I did have one successful period where I obeyed the rules of my system for a year and a half trading stocks, limited my trades, and took stops religiously. I believe I can do that again if I find a legitimate way to profit from the futures markets. If not, plan B would be to fund a prop trading account and return to stocks.