Uptick:
I was watching S and TGT. TGT was trading near the figure and then poped to .35 cent, I had this feeling that I "missed" something and I was in the mood to get it back. When RLX went up I took S from consolidation at .30, and that is the kind of trade I would take every single time. Dow was holding above 100 and I thought there would be a second leg. RLX about to break the open and that for me is a bread and butter set-up knowing that at the very minimum I should break even on the trade.
What killed me was taking KSS, after I took KSS, S started to pull back (I was in the money by 15 cents) and I hesitated. Then he printed .20 immediately and was showing .10 and by then I knew I was hosed. However, when RLX pulled back I was looking at HD (second biggest cap) which was super strong, and I was thinking WMT will eventually join the party.
Up until that point, I can stlll make a case, but as the index collapsed I refused to get out and bought 3 other RLX's for a bounce as I thought RLX would bounce off previous intraday low, the problem was that I could not pare out KSS/S at good prices and I held 400 (originally I took just 500) KSS all the way down for that "it is gotta squeeze" syndrome, afterall futures looked strong at the time and I thought KSS was choppy and worst case scenario was stucking in the same range. When WMT broke into a new low I knew I was smoked and I gave up early morning's work.
You can call it frustration, or "too much" conviction, it was my biggest mistake of the game. I had an acceptable day with $450, I wasn't happy with it, and when it dipped to $350 I was like "I gotta pare those out and try to finish above $400", then at $300 I was like "damn let me wait for a small squeeze because I don't think this thing is going to tank all the way in", you get the idea, by the time I was at unchanged, I was like "holy crap let me get out before I am down for the day", and that was low of KSS and around where I got out before a big squeeze finally hit.
This is why I said discipline can not be taught, every once in a while you are guaranteed to lose it, to some degree. It is the typical "is it a pullback or a reversal" syndrome, and the difference is while I did not add to my loser, I bought more for the sector which is the same thing.