Wow, thanks for the kind remarks and support.
I know I'm not the first to screw up and make a post like this. I've seen and read quite a few. I know a few people personally who failed as well.
Looking back in time, the most successful position trades were when the market REALLY dumps. Picking quality stocks and companies on the cheap with a decent dividend and sit on them and not try and time things.
Trading shit stocks or momentum stocks too has burned me. Not letting winners run and taking profits too soon. Sitting on losing positions too long.ETC... Then Warren Buffet comes in my head and I hear buy and hold. Then you see some shit positions become shittier. Then I think average down but I don't want to commit more capital to the same stock and remain diversified. It comes back and you kick yourself...but NEVER buy into its momentum.
Then I say fuck this and stocks and play the index etf's like qqqq vs. qid. DDM vs. DXD. Maybe try and scalp them. I buy the dip and don't let the rally run to maximize gains. Then I say this market is fucked long term anyway and I don't want to be long anything.
Yes, I thought the market was overpriced to start the year. I shorted the DOW starting in January. Looked like a champ late Febuary. I covered for a sizeable gain. I say short the next pop. Well, that 23 Day straight bull run in the Spring killed me. Rather have it choppy like it is now...
I know financials are fucked in the Spring and feel the need to short banks. I go short BIG time on CFC at one point like $41 and also WM. I actually short WM the day before earnings...The bastards beat. Still hiding their problems before it became public as it is now. I sit on the damn position and watch these fraction, penny moves higher losing like $50 every penny higher and see it at $44. I hold the short position. I get back to even and cover glad to be out...You the the rest of story.
I have CFC pegged too and about 1000 shares short at @$39. The bitch is falling. Cramer fuckbag comes on and says BUY. Motherfucker causes a mid-day spike to $42. I hold position. It comes back down and I get out. Rumors of a god damn MER buyout too! Then you see these M&A takeovers and I say screw shorting anything. Man, I could list a ton more examples...It was disgusting to watch everything up everyday being short.
Then I short again first cross at 14k DOW in July. Oh yeah got this one!, August gets bad(I'm happy). August 17th is the big one and flush out day. Futures are tanking275 overnight. Japan is gonna raise rates too. Motherfucking FED steps in. F'd ME good. I am gonna cover on the big one 87' style, longs get fucked and this creates an ultimate time to pick up bargain stocks. The crash doesn't happen. Now you have to buy a weaker dip....
Then there are some IPO stocks I really like like VMW. I know it will be huge like GOOG. I pussy out and don't go large. Thing doubles but my strategy wouldn't of let it run and would of took profits early anyway.
Man, so many more to mention. I am not looking forward to tax season to see some trades.
I can't lie. I love the markets and finance. I love following financial news. I like watching about 40 tickers trade from 8AM-8PM. Shit I check overnight right now as well and China. Man, do I want a global crash. I want blood and lots of it over there....I want a max global breakdown in the next year. I am doom and gloom in irrational markets like this. Same feelings I had in 00'. PEople were like buy TECH! I said are you fucking crazy at these prices? Then 9-11 happened. No one gave a shit about the markets. Time passed and then I saw the $$$ signs and potential in the market. You say man a lot of people got wiped out, what a great time to BUY! BUY the fear and uncertainty, it will pay off! I don't have much money to play since fresh out of college practically and just started working. Markets are kind of dead. I sit on positions and get frustrated and sell good stocks I had at bargain levels WAY too early. Shit, we were all still scared still.
Now I'm working a sweet gig job, making money on the side in a side home based business supplementing my income, plus swing/position trading. Life ain't too bad. I'm banking money in my Ameritrade account, maxing my ROTH, maxing my company 401k. Sacraficing new car, house, etc for the time being...
I save over six figures cash. I say fuck you job, I quit, I want FREEDOM. I'm gonna trade! Well cut that in half and here I am.
No job, no benefits, still student loan debt (YES, I should pay off!) I think well if I die, I don't have to re-pay...lol. I can beat the 3.25% in the market...LOL. I still drive the same POS car, want to buy a condo (I am waiting for foreclosures, still think too pricey market). But hey, it could be worse...And I have half banked still. But I need to hustle and get money flowing again and get a LIFE back to normal.
Sorry for the rant, probably need to sleep. BTW, American Gangster was good.