but the "cut your losses", that never made much sense to me. I think the risk should be controlled via size (and I'm bad at that as well).
One thing I'm curious though (and I'm sure I arrive at this knowing how I trade) is the "insane risk" part. I fully agree my risk level is high but how did you arrive at that conclusion (is it based on the weekly P&L changes, the fact that I don't stop myself out, the fact that I fail to recognize the trend or do any technical analysis ...)
I think you will have problems with reaching max potential until you realize how to cut your losses. I explained it as simply as I could, but like I said, go read any good trading book. I guarantee you they will talk about that. It is by far the most important thing because it's one of the few things you have control over.
Through your own admissions, your "losses wipe out your gains." That's how I know that your risk, however you want to calculate it, is "insane." Either your probabilities of success per trade are too low (this happened to me last year), or you hold losses too long, or your trading too many contracts. All of this contributes to "insane" risk. When I say insane, I intend for it to mean that you are taking on a risk that almost ensures you will lose.

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