Thank you all, for the advice. Today, might have been my worst trading day I completely lost control and the market had moved too quickly against me. I wasn't use to trading a new instrument (futures). A thought had crept into my head that I never thought would... I actually thought about quitting. I love the markets too much, if I'm being honest with myself I don't journal enough, don't study enough, and I make too many excuses to not study. I know what I'm good at is discipline, and being honest with myself; I'm just a lazy student of the markets. I'm gonna take a break, reflect and do only paper trading. I will only paper trade till I see consistency, yes paper trading is almost like the real thing for me; I know it's not a lot for most. I appreciate you all taking the time to answer my post ET has a good community.