Day #26 (Baby Step #7) Fell asleep last night with a bit of vertigo, and throughout the night I struggled with that. Woke up this morning, and still felt some vertigo, but not as bad as I had during the night. (Don't know if I am getting sick or what) Told myself that if I was qualified to trade today, then I really needed to be aware of this and if it becomes an issue, then call it a day.
Yesterday there was all sorts of reasons (or temptations) not to trade today. Things like my X being over at my house visiting our kids, my girlfriend inviting me to spend the night at her place, a feeling that I might blow it today... So I have to say, I dug in my heels a bit, and told myself that Tuesday I was going to trade. That all these other distractions were not going to sway me... that I wanted to keep this momentum going. (My girlfriend was totally cool with this.) I just didn't want to have a day not taking these baby steps... because I can feel the change... I can feel what the training is doing to me.
So the day started, and I have to say that even though I didn't feel 100% on my game, it actually felt like it wasn't that big of a deal... just do what I was supposed to do... and to hell with the results. I don't want to say it was easy, because it wasn't... but it was calmer. I took the trades... and in writing down the checkmarks, next to that I wrote in how many ticks I contributed or withdrew. This made it a bit harder not to trade P&L, but I need some type of method to know when to stop at my daily loss limit.
Then I got a great signal, and it was a no brainer trade. I put the trade on, stop in the right location and sat back in my chair to let it play out. I kind of stretched, and tilted my head back over the chair... and suddenly the room went vertigo and started swirling all around! Dizzy. Shesh, I lean forward... dizziness stops... I immediately close out my trade contributing 1 tick (It shortly went to profit target 30 ticks higher) and I got up and walked around a bit and then went and laid down for a while.
After that experience I was pretty much done trading for the day. But a bit later on I actually started to feel myself again... ate some more food.. drank some water. So when I look at the charts again, I see another trade close to setting up. Now I wanted to take that trade... and it was like I could hear @
Handle123 reminding me of being greedy (I think he used the words piggie wiggie in the post a few weeks ago) and I asked myself, was I being greedy? No, this was just the correct trade to take... regardless of how I was feeling. So I took it, and it went right to profit target. Checkmark.
So one more time I evaluate myself, and I decide that if I was my coach, I would be telling me to call it a day... Don't push it... Finish it with a winning trade. So that is exactly what I did.
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