Money to the successful trader is a renewable resource as long as you still have a little to start again.
Trading isn't all about being correct as many times as you can, it's about risk management as well. This is a point the overall market is learning about and looks like many here on ET are as well.
O.P., you need to be running your trading like a business and your life according to your income. You pay bills with your pay from your job. You do not trade to pay your bills.
Jesse Livermore does a good job explaining this in his book "Reminiscences of a Stock Operator" with the fur coat story. I know you've heard of the the book, maybe even have read it, READ IT AGAIN!
ALWAYS LIVE TO FIGHT ANOTHER DAY, one of the crucial principles in Sun Tzu's "The Art of War", read that while you're at it as well.
O.P., the good thing about your post is that you may be closer than you think. The fact that you posted and didn't care about what anyone replies - being honest to yourself is key. You are on your way to putting ego in the back seat, something many here will never do.
Good luck to you, hope you don't give up because this thing called trading is all about the fight, getting knocked down and getting back at it. We all get knocked down, the key is to not get knocked out!
Staying alive long enough to adapt and evolve, isn't that what is so critical to the basic principles of Evolution? Why is it so much different in learning to trade? It's not. Maturity and character development are expensive traits to acquire, but they pay the student back in spades once achieved. The truly great ones even say that it's not ultimately achievable, but a constant process. The truly great artist never finishes a masterpiece, he just finally comes to a point where he is done working on it.
Good Luck!