FACT: If I never took on the leadership position, I am sure my own trading will be better. (That said, now with the commission reduction, it is a toss-up)
FACT: I always wanted to expose myself toward the management aspect of business. And I was willing to suffer any slumps that are usually associated with the distractions.
FACT: If I am meant to be a great individual talent, I will fulfill both. I will build a successful trading team AND make myself a successful trader.
The problem is at this point, my learning curve is already flat. It is no longer a situation where I can just pile in many many hours and expect to see something in return.
It is very difficult for me to learn anything that will improve my trading substantially, and for me to reach the next level, I have to play the same games over and over and over and over again while trying to push up my size and holding time up little by little. It is like saying "if I can jump just one another inch higher I will be able to dunk the basketball", but you just can't do it. I know what I must do to get to that very important next level, but I haven't done it yet and I don't know how I can possibly speed it up.
And it is going to be a long ride until either:
1) Everything suddenly just clicked, which is exactly how I turned profitable. I can not describe it, it just clicked, you can make up a million reasons how you made the progress, but what really happened was just that, everything clicked. For me to make out into that next level, something has to click, again.
2) Someone who is substantially better than me comes along and fights in the trench with me on a daily basis, talks about every trade he makes (not just the winners) and allows me to pick his brain not just on strategy but also execution (like when to pare in and out and such).
Neither is under my control seriously, I go into every game and try to play my best, that is under my control, when can I break out into that next statistical category, I don't know.
I do know a lot of traders, including one that I just picked up from within my own firm, are paying high rates than they should. Simply because they don't know better. I mean, if Worldco offered me 2 cents a share to start, 50% payout, I would have still took it anyway simply because I didn't know the industry.
So I am going to let the game come to me, but make myself come to the competitors.