Hey Guys,
Thanks for all the input and suggestions. I stepped away from most of the "trading stuff" over the weekend and have started spending this morning focusing on other issues. Im hoping I can maybe start a discussion to resolve some of my issues...
The first point I would like to bring up is the set-up issue. While I agree that I have a lot of work to do, I truly do not believe this will solve my issues. Hypothetically, if I were to make my winrate 100% and trade all my set-ups absolutely perfectly through backtesting and SIM, I still think my emotions would screw that up once I went live. So while I agree that tuning set-ups more, only taking my most confident ones, etc,etc, may help, I do not believe it will solve the issue over the long run. I may be naive about this, but I do not feel this is the root problem.
Which brings me to my next point....I spent some time over the weekend just "thinking" about my thinking/emotions. I basically thought to myself, if trading weren't in the equation and I was "feeling or thinking" this way, why would that be? Basically, trying to get to the root cause of my brain function/psyche and what causes those emotions.
I feel I've come to realize that my line of thinking once I become emotional is completely irrational. The reason i say this is because there is a giant disconnect between my thinking and cognitive decision making. This is what really made me realize I have major issues other than my set-ups to resolve. Which brings me to the conclusion of either I don't have the ability/skills to make rational decisions based on a certain emotion or they just haven't been developed.
Anyway, I 've been doing some reading about the actual thought process of emotionally charged cognitive decision making...just learning about the brain and thought process. (Trading is just a vehicle for those emotions). Man, Im such a geek. Anyway, in the little reading I've done, there is definitely things the brain does to prevent things from being seen clearly in heightened emotional states...and in my case, my thinking/decision making becomes completely irrational...
So what to do about this? Well, my plan for right now, is to change my routine up for a bit. First and foremost, Im going to read up on learning some exercises and skills to recognize and change my line of thinking. The next thing, is Im going to start keeping an emotional journal similar to my trade journal looking at my pretrade feelings, while the trade is in progress and then my exit...basically how I feel about the trade...Am I anxious b/c I just had a loser? Do I feel confident b/c I just had a winner but the current trades set-up isn't all that great? etc. etc. Im hoping to exactly pinpoint those feelings similar to how one would pinpoint a trade set-up...and then...change the negative thought process thru skills/exercise that I develop. (btw, Im not coming up with this on my own, this is from reading material

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Lastly, the real problem with all of this, is that its is going to be nearly impossible to do in a SIM situation. Im going to have to put real money on the line. So while Im going to spend some time developing my routine a bit, I need to put real money at risk to figure this stuff out.
So Im going to give myself one last go. If I see mental progress then I will continue trading, if it spirals out of control and I can't regain that control, Im calling it quits.
If you guys have any input both positive and negative feel free to let me know. Thanks again to everyone who wrote me both in this journal and thru IM. Im always happy to get feedback. I know my situation isn't unique at all. In fact, I would guess its more the norm. But Im going to do my best not to be stubborn about this. I guess I can equate it to sports b/c that is what I know best...I know at suck at basketball, no matter how much I practice and develop Im still terrible so I focus my attention on other sports and then play basketball for fun. Thats the way day trading may turn out for me. But I don't want to give up until I've exhausted trying to fix/change all the possible issues.