Honestly it's not obvious to me what you're talking about. Please explain in greater detail so it's more obvious.I stumbled across some of your posts near the end of last year, and it appears that you have not yet chosen the correct path. This implies that you have not yet reached the level of required awareness. If I was you, I would make it my business this year to change your attitude and behavior, but that choice is entirely yours and no one else's business.
Please enlighten me on the "correct path" and the "required awareness".