Another user (Pekelo, if memory serves) was mentioning how every once in a while he takes Freddie (or whatever username Freddie is currently under) off ignore to see if Freddie has changed, and almost always regrets it. I figured this was a good idea, knowing I'd regret it as well, but giving it the ole' college try.
It'll last a day or so.
In the future you should reach out and ask for help from others here, if you feel yourself getting ready to relapse like that.
We are here for you. No shame in asking for help.