What self sabotage looks like...
Had 4 green days where i traded properly all week.
Woke up on friday thinking. One more day and i will have a green week.
Then i buy these two stocks
TELL bought as flyby for no reason. It dropped like a rock the next day. Still dont know why i bought it.
KITT tried to trade. was planning to exit with a small loss if didnt go my way.
should have sold where i planned to sell
Shoulda sold at 20 dollar loss when i saw that it was not moving up anymore
Shoulda sold when it hit my break even price multiple times giving me a chance to exit.
made same mistake that cost me in the past many times.
What it feels like for those who never had to deal with self sabotage.
You literally black out in a way.
I froze every time i had a chance to exit at break even or a small loss.
Or in other words you get locked out of your own brain.
While it tries to correct the events to allign with the self sabotage belief that its operating under.
Extremely shit feeling to be a passive observer of events and being locked out of your own mind.
Watching yourself make a mistake while your logical mind is processing it at the same time completely aware that whats happening is a mistake and you shouldnt do it.
can be confused with fomo. But its a bit different. Fomo feels different i have control i just chose to take certain stupid actions and there is no internal resistance of blackout
You’re not a trader by any stretch of an imagination and you have zero chance of ever becoming one until you wake up from denial and stop gambling.
Take responsibility for your actions, learn to control yourself and do not blame it on self-sabotage.
You’re a compulsive gambler unable to control yourself and you’re destroying your (and your family’s) life, yet you describe it as “trading”.
You should seek help of competent counselor to help you deal with your underlying emotional pain instead of feeding the stock market’s slot machine when you’re emotional and mentally unfit.
