He mate, Ive been studying your comments a bit and it seems you have little to none feeling for sentiment or price action/direction. You're completely stuck into technicals, even after some 15 years hanging in there.
Im not only here to try help people giving some ingredients to get succesfull one day but also for traders to try get them out of their missery. I can just smell you have invested a lot of money to think it might go better some day. Likely the only thing that is keeping you founding money is that you still think its leading to somethink one day and the feeling, at least, you really are something at some poor forum.
As a psychologist I can smell some autism spectrum right away(very annoying individals usually as well that cant handle traders that really are succesfull); there is no hope for you. Im sorry but I have to tell you; sometimes you just need to hear from some professional(not only trader but also psychologist as mentioned before). When you stop trading is best to seek for professional help to get the failure and complete missrey out of your head as soon as possible. Likely some anti depresssiva is needed for people stuck in some fantasy world for such a long time to get back into reality as well.
Feel free to contact me private, I can help you initiate to way recovery. I know its hard to read but its best to call a day and stop doing this like asap. I feel very sorry for you but there are people that do care like me and are willing to help you at the end