Thanks, ON - but nah, not planning to fight the weather any time soon. Getting angry at the market would be like getting angry at the sea; it won't care.
The sea, even in the middle of a hurricane, is not hostile
per se; it'll just kill you for a fool if you're on it and didn't pay your dues (oddly, I find a lot of reassurance in that - even though the converse is not guaranteed.) But there's also another parallel: when I first took to the sea, I focused everything I had on learning how to be a good sailor so I
could survive on it - because I decided that it would always be a part of my life from then on. I'm doing the same thing now, for the same reasons... and frankly, because that kind of commitment is where all the juice in life is, for me. My version of moderation is "any arterial bleeding? No? Great, throw on a pressure bandage and keep going."
It might kill me one day, but I've had one unholy hell of fun ride through life doing just that. I suspect I'm too old to change... even if I wanted to.