Sabotage, my friend, is bottling everything up and pretending that you have control over your biological impulses.Look, I've been reading your posts. You probably ought to consider stopping trading. It just doesn't work that way. Even if you are profitable now, you'll probably sabotage yourself or already do. There's conflict here, written on the walls of ET.
I highly recommend you post your trades. When I put them up for everyone else to see, it seems to take some of the emotional energy out of it. Plus it's a way of being responsible, accountable. I try to post most of my stuff in another thread here, and I get feedback from another insightful trader, which is really, really helpful. Try it it works.