Quote from Ghost of Cutten:
Genuine trading talent is very scarce and valuable. If you have it, and can demonstrate that convincingly, then there are many people who will give you a shot.
Piking ES for 3 months with a $1,500 account before blowing up is not a convincing demonstration, sorry.
My advice is get the best salaried job you can in the markets, and learn on the job. Aggressively seek out mentors, and study a lot on your downtime. Once you save enough, re-open an account, and trade it, keeping a meticulous trading diary and records. Go over it with your mentor(s). If you get good enough, they'll put in the word and you have a chance to get some capital to trade with under supervision. Then you can keep going and if you perform you will succeed eventually.