Let's break this down logically, padu...
So you have 14 years of losses because you do not have an edge. So all beginners should do what you do, which is to over-trade, to figure out if they have an edge.
You have yet to find your edge.
So WTF are you doing trading?
You are the worst advisor to beginners on ET. Ever. I cannot believe I wasted my time on Skype with you.
And yes, you SHOULD be ashamed after 14 years of losses. There comes a time when you should give up, and also a time when you should STFU.
Just stop typing advice to people here.