My kind suggestion to you is - try and distance yourself from this trade for a second, as an outside observer I find you highly subjective on the matter, you rationalize every negative comment about the trade and you exaggerate everything positive. I won't even give my opinion on the trade, it does not matter and would not be of any help. Just try and be mindful about this, try and be more objective, may be reduce some of your position in the symbol. Basic advice, but very applicable to you now, I think : )