I am like with free source
I see you have exactly the same attitude to trading education as you have with software, Radex.
This accounts for
some of your many problems, and further raises the question of whether trading is actually suitable for you, given the overwhelming disparity between your stated objectives and the ways you aim to achieve them.
A big rethink over this issue would be every bit as helpful to you as a big rethink over how you trade, where you trade, with what leverage you trade, how you fund your account, and every practical aspect of what you're currently doing.
At the moment, you're stacking the deck
hugely against yourself in as many different ways as possible, in an endeavour in which very few people are successful anyway. The problem is that when experienced, successful traders try to explain anything to you, you seem far more interested in defending yourself than in learning anything. That's
not a good combination, and it's not one that lends itself to benefitting from trading forums, either.