The replies I got proves that there are real caring souls around, although most here are in the cold and detached world of trading.
In fact, there are kinder souls here than a lot I met recently in the medical industry.
All this msgs really touched me, and makes me feel that I am not alone in this world.
Well, I am an Electrical Engineer by training and have some education in Fortran programming, but I guess that is probably almost 20 years ago. Wonder whether that is enough to program my own trading strategies.
15 years ago, a friend persuaded me to deposit money into trading forex, and I sort of gained some trading experience from there. Eventually, I stopped because I found out that it was a buckle shop and the management pays those sales who brought in the trading account a big percentage of the money in the event the account dried out.
I will heed the advise of those here and stop trading with the mentality of meeting my family medical needs.
However, I do enjoy trading after this 2 months of fact finding and trading.
Anyway, I am way overdue in moving into a life model that deviates from the trading-time-for-money-to-make-ends-meet symptom. I have been procrastinating for long time because the security my job offers.
It is only when things happened that one realises that they should have acted early.
For now, I don't think I can keep my job for long either, as the demand for my time during the day to be at home to handle the situation heightens. Therefore, I will need to do something at home anyway and envy those of you who have learned the trade and can work in the comfort of your home.
Therefore, I will set aside a small sum of money first for more education in trading and buy whatever soft or hardware necessary to be a more efficient trader.
I will take this opportunity to develop my trading hobby and use mini accounts to test my strategies.
Being a very discipline person, I will not allow this trading activities to eat into my core funds to meet the medical demands of my love ones.
Therefore, thank you again people for you kind advise.
Do give me more advise on learning the ropes in your industry; like should I subscribe to TradeStation or there are others out there that I can slowly develop my trading strategies and do back testing which you feel is more useful.