WTF do you know what i am doing ?
the way you talk 99 % of losing traders are all trading for an experience!
That's not true.
Traders have to grow, learn, evolve. Everyone starts as a losing trader. That's just how the market works. You earn the right to make a profit, and that is done through focused work over a significant period of time.
The difference is between those who don't do what it takes to earn the right to succeed, deluding themselves for years at times, and those who are in the process of earning their stripes and are simply going through the natural process where failure is to be expected.
If you're in a position where you don't have to earn a living, you have a lot of time. And that means you can waste it however you choose. People who HAVE TO make a living can't afford to do that. They have to find solutions proactively, or admit defeat and move on.
I can tell just by the way you're writing about the markets and how you are writing in general - you are ALL OVER THE PLACE. You lack FOCUS. Without focus nothing can be accomplished.
You don't backtest. You just grasp at stuff. You throw out trading quotes just to keep the flow of the conversation. You even engage in self depreciating humor in order to elicit the 'oh no you're alright man, you just need to persist and you'll get there, we'll help you' response.
You are trading for an experience. Not to make money.
I'll admit this is a very difficult business because there are a lot of temptations, including from the world of vendors, and it takes a long time to cut through that if you weren't lucky to be one of the very few to either find a profitable trading mentor (who was good at teaching), or get a seat at a CTA. Such is life. Such is this endeavor.
But given the significant amount of time you spent on this and just the nature of the way you interact with people here, it's clear that it is the experience of 'trading' (which is not really trading, more like playing an online video game) that you crave, you are not engaged in focused deliberate practice. The result is predictable.