Ok.. lets just get this over with. Today was an exceedingly bad day. I end at -$958. By far the biggest problem is that I can't let go of a losing trade. Sure I don't have enough experience to be messing with a lower time frame, and sure I should be in SIM, and sure I haven't backtested enough, but the absolute biggest problem is that I was holding onto losing trades, seeing the reason to take the opposite trade, and I refused to do anything about it. Here are the highlights (or lowlights to be more precise...LOL)
A - I try my first short here... and out very quickly, but still down almost 4 points.
B - I try a second short here, and out much higher up for a loss of 7 points.
I'm not even sure what happened next but I kept looking for shorts. I even commented that we bounced off 4119, but it just didn't register.
C - I try one more short here as its looking like a pretty good rejection, but this too is stopped out for a loss. I see that in real time, I have a huge problem with seeing a trend in one direction, and yet expecting or hoping for a reversal.
D - Here I finally try for a long, and out for just a little bit of profit after what looks to be a REJ at 4145. The entire time I am seeing higher lows and should have been thinking about longs much sooner.
E - I try for a long again here, and sit through sideways action to get out BE. I can't tell you how many times I've seen this in my testing... this very tight range for at least 10 minutes that eventually breaks down or up, and yet when it broke down I didn't act.
F - Here is a short at the most inappropriate time, and I held through a very serious loss before it comes back to me. I have reinforced very bad habits that did me in later in the day.
G - Quick short here after we broke below the previous low, but out real quick.
H - Another short here.. out real quick.
I - This one caused major trouble. I think I'm seeing a double top below this OH.. which isn't really in play anymore given the amount of times we have gone above and below this level. The swing low at H is also a nice bounce off the DL on the hourly chart, but I figure we still have a nice lower high and lower low on the 5 minute, so the short had promise. It wan't entered properly, but the bigger problem is that when it broke above... I did nothing.
J - When price dips right here to see if there are any sellers and finds none in this previous range... I did nothing. I simply waited for price to come back to me.
K - Huge thrust up here through the previous range to the left, and I'm just waiting for at least some sort of RET to get out at a better price.
L - And finally my exit is here for over 22 points in the negative... complete with a long that I exit quickly as well because its already been 40 points up from the bottom at H.
M - So I take a nap and come back. Took a short, this time, just for the hell of it, and once again I'm just sitting as we shoot higher and re-enter the previous range until I finally exit for another 8 point loss.
CONCLUSION
So there you have it... everything done wrong in exquisite fashion. There really isn't just one or two things to fix... lots went wrong today. I think looking at it now, its certainly not the easiest day. The long after we dipped below 4119 could have been seen and acted upon, but when we retraced down to almost this level again an hour later, going long seemed not to be in the cards, especially without hitting that low a bit closer.
All of these orders were market orders, and hence I was responsible for both in and out. I have had problems before of price taking me out right at the worst place with an auto 5 point stop loss, and often if I am going to be doing things properly, some stops will have to be wider than 5 points anyway based on the swing points. But thinking about it today, getting taken out of the market at 5 points would have been much better than my 22 point loss and several more in the 5 to 10 point range. This might have put me in a much better frame of mind to actually take the long after the nice RETs on the way up like above J.
I'm not too discouraged, but the big failure is how I choose to interact with the market (if you're drowning and need me to throw you a life jacket... I clearly might not be able to act when necessary!!!!).
I will spend the rest of the evening going over what could have happened if I didn't focus so much on the flow/behavior but just used the 1 minute bars and rejections/penetrations at the important levels.