Ok... final update here guys... and not to be rude at all as I'd love to reply to slugar and emini personally, but I feel like I'm just being back up against the wall here with having to provide answers and explain myself and I simply don't want to go down this road.
What I really want to say is that although emini and slugar both are on their own journey's, they aren't in the position to offer advice. I in no way mean to be rude, but my honest and true gut feeling and reaction is that each of us sees it differently, each of us needs something different to break through what it is we need to break through. None of you are wrong with your advice, but often its advice that has helped you with your own problem, and this might not reflect where my issues are. Furthermore, and once again, not to be rude, but I just feel that those who aren't trading with real money and have consistent positive results I have trouble answering to.
I really really don't want to come off as rude, but in some respects I don't find some of these questions helpful to me and I just want to focus on what is helpful to me. I too struggle with the idea that I need to define what kind of trader I want to be because I'm all over the place in this regard (ie. trading different time frames), and I too see that this is easy when you step back a bit and money isn't on the line. But I just don't want to listen to too many people at the moment, and dare I say, people who aren't trading size and are profitable. I in no way mean to be insulting, I just need to regain control of my path and direction.