Good advice, thanks. I'll look into that option for sure. My system is systematic enough now that I didn't worry about "tilt" as much as I normally would have, but it's funny how the market is like water. It can find the slightest crack. So what ended up happening from the pressure is mechanical errors: misentering trades then freezing etc etc. I'd actually be up on the month slightly if not for just a couple unbelievable fatfingers.
Humbly, the market doesn't find anything. The market just is. It's completely impersonal. There's only you.
Size + conditions I think just made my brain melt.
Completely normal. Even if you size down this type of volatility is demanding for a discretionary trader. I was pretty exhausted at the end of this week, but part of it was probably that I was trading 24/7, too. More hours than I usually do.