Couldn't trade today.
Traveling back home.
I took a look at 1m trades and scalp trades from todays action and today would not have been a good day.
I almost wish that I did get to trade today because trading has been pretty good since I have started this journal to work on discipline. Today would have been good to test the 'not so good times'. Would I have stayed focused and taken only the trades with full signals ?
It would have been really good to test my head to see if I can stay focused and stay on the track of my trading rules.
I looked through the day one bar at a time so that it would be as close as possible to real trading. Even doing this, after some losing trades, I felt myself feeling kind of desperate. This desperate feeling is what I need to KILL. I feel this emotion is the one that can at times make me steer from my trading rules.
In a way, even though I did not trade, I did learn what emotion to look for so that I can avoid its occasional affect.
I need to remember that other good trades or good times will be around the corner. Perhaps this is just the amateur in me.
I remember early in my other career there were times that were full of desperation or 'unknown' fear where now I look back at those times as just day to day events that were part of the job.