And that is where the fear comes in. That is all discretionary day trading, except for the first GC trade.
Why can I not do that live? I have no coding or auto-strats. Just my own head. At the beginning of this holiday season, I am very happy about that final NQ trade. I went in a direction, it started to go against, so I took the stupid loss. And shortly after that the thing tanked many more points down.
Don't know any specific details of your trading day nor do I know the home environment you're trading within...
Yet, it does impact the mind of a discretionary trader.
Simulator trading can play tricks on the mind when you're switching from simulator to live trading in the
same trading day. In fact, sometimes I suspect that traders mixing simulator trading and live trading in the same day are having problems managing their emotions and then when the pressure gets too much...they go live when a valid trade signal shows up and then the results of the live trade impacts the entire trading day (lots of emotions show up when the day concludes).
Maybe you should designate a day to simulate trade and then do not do any live trades. The same when you designate a day to live trade and then do not do any simulator trades. You may then be able to make a better comparison about of using your trading plan.
In fact, your backtest results should help guide you as you traverse from simulator to live trading. Yet, I do realize you don't put much weight into backtesting. I mean, even successful discretionary traders have backtest results and should lean on it for help in staying focus on what they should be doing including helping them to manage those emotions.
Last of all, I think simulator trading should only be used to test/learn the broker platform or used when the platform has key upgrades that you need to learn how to use in certain trading situations or when you change key aspects to your trading plan...even discretionary traders have rules in their trading...rules that can change when market conditions change.
Jumping back n forth between the two when you already know the broker platform can play too many tricks on the mind of a discretionary trader.
wrbtrader