Lastly, if you're trying to increase your PnL, what do you think is easier to do right now. Change up how you're going to trade (ie. holding longer, therefore completely changing your win rate perhaps and also your R:R parameters), or just put on more size and trade exactly the same? The money part seems like its going to be a psychological barrier for you. But if you try and get there by both changing how you're going to trade it, but holding longer, which it seems like you don't want to do since you're watching order flow, and also adding in the psychological element of bigger gains, then you're changing too many variables at once. If on the other hand you change nothing about how you trade, but simply trade bigger size, then you will be able to figure out how to get comfortable with the money aspect of potentially bigger wins, and see how that affects you.
This is the problem im struggling with right now, its very easy to just up my size a little and keep grinding for more money, but the thing is i realize thats not how good traders do it, if i want to keep grinding like that im in for a tedious life in the market looking at every single tick.
Any time you can swap "Holding longer" for "Adding size" you should always choose holding longer, because size becomes a hinderance, and also if you can learn to hold longer, then once you lean that you can always up size while you hold longer, you cant go the other way though.
Bottom line, the best traders i know are patient they look at the market like glass, the guy who was my mentor was up like 25k the first time i met him and didnt even flinch, PNL just straight up doesnt phase this guy, and i cant tell you how many lessons i learned from him.
I know i can just add size, and make a bit more money, but that tops out, and the kind of trading im doing is stressful as hell, id way rather learn to hold for 5 days with half the size.


