Nitro,
I believe you will find a kindred spirit in Jiddu (and U.G., too, but later). Do try to read this if and when time permits:
http://www.jiddu-krishnamurti.net/en/freedom-from-the-known/
"Understanding is not an intellectual process. Accumulating knowledge about yourself and learning about yourself are two different things, for the knowledge you accumulate about yourself is always of the past and a mind that is burdened with the past is a sorrowful mind. Learning about yourself is not like learning a language or a technology or in the present and knowledge is always in the past, and as most of us live in the past and are satisfied with the past, knowledge becomes extraordinarily important to us. That is why we worship the erudite, the clever, the cunning. But if you are learning all the time, learning every minute, learning by watching and listening, learning by seeing and doing, then you will find that learning is a constant movement without the past."
Edit : I forgot to mention that the many YouTube videos on Jiddu are a good resource, too. A clip where Jiddu talks about the "crisis in consciousness" used in a recent video : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0BORmMu1quo
I believe you will find a kindred spirit in Jiddu (and U.G., too, but later). Do try to read this if and when time permits:
http://www.jiddu-krishnamurti.net/en/freedom-from-the-known/
"Understanding is not an intellectual process. Accumulating knowledge about yourself and learning about yourself are two different things, for the knowledge you accumulate about yourself is always of the past and a mind that is burdened with the past is a sorrowful mind. Learning about yourself is not like learning a language or a technology or in the present and knowledge is always in the past, and as most of us live in the past and are satisfied with the past, knowledge becomes extraordinarily important to us. That is why we worship the erudite, the clever, the cunning. But if you are learning all the time, learning every minute, learning by watching and listening, learning by seeing and doing, then you will find that learning is a constant movement without the past."
Edit : I forgot to mention that the many YouTube videos on Jiddu are a good resource, too. A clip where Jiddu talks about the "crisis in consciousness" used in a recent video : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0BORmMu1quo
