The evidence is there from my own trading journals.
That's the point of journaling regularly during the day :
one can go back and find what worked. A trading journal is
extremely important and one of the most useful tool
for a trader.
So, sorry, I am going back to what worked.
Yes, the coach approach is a bit unusual :
* 5 hrs of daily meditation to neutralize the negatives
* other stuff to find out the causes of self-sabotage
So I am going to stick to what has shown results.
What I have done is not unusual :
"You know how it is. There’s something you really, really need to do — go out for a run, or get to work on a homework assignment, or start writing the next post in your blog, or get down to your meditation practice — but before you do it you’ll just have a cup of coffee, or check one more article online, or… my goodness, is that a cobweb over there? I really must do some tidying!
We’ve all been there. The mind sets up resistances and finds excuses to avoid doing what you think you should be doing. And this applies to meditation as well. You suddenly find all these other things that seem intensely compelling, and before you know it there’s no time left for your practice.
You may even be aware — intensely aware — of the fact you’re engaged in avoidance maneuvers, and you torture yourself as you indulge in a constant stream of distractions in order to stay off the cushion. You feel the power of the thought, “I should be meditating — I need to meditate,” at the same time as you experience an even more powerful feeling that you just don’t want to. Not yet. Not now. It’s very painful.
Even when your meditation practice is a source of great pleasure, you can find yourself avoiding it. Even when you know that your life it immeasurably richer, happier, and more fulfilled when you meditate regularly, you can find yourself avoiding the cushion . Even when you’ve promised yourself you’ll meditate every day, you find yourself avoiding that darned cushion!
There must be reasons of course, and we can end up torturing ourselves by engaging in psychoanalysis. Sure, there may be some part of ourselves that doesn’t want to change ( added from myself : hence some self-sabotage) . Sure, it may be that we’re avoiding some kind of painful experience ( added from myself : I am at a stage where I want all the "crap" dealt with, to face whatever is causing problem and just sort it out) . Sure, we may be reacting to the fact that we’re using too many “shoulds” in our life and subtly or not so subtly coercing ourselves to meditate. We can spend hours coming up with such theories, and often we feel a bit happier once we’ve come up with a story that might explain why we’re not meditating, but the thing is, we’re still not meditating. We’re just involved in a slightly more refined way of avoiding meditation."
http://www.wildmind.org/applied/daily-life/dealing-with-resistance
Now, maybe the intensity of the meditation ( 5hrs/day) might have starting to bring up the real stuff I am showing resistances to. Had I done less hours daily,may be the resistance will have taken more time to show up. So yep, 5hrs daily is about right to get down to business quickly.
That's the point of journaling regularly during the day :
one can go back and find what worked. A trading journal is
extremely important and one of the most useful tool
for a trader.
So, sorry, I am going back to what worked.
Yes, the coach approach is a bit unusual :
* 5 hrs of daily meditation to neutralize the negatives
* other stuff to find out the causes of self-sabotage
So I am going to stick to what has shown results.
What I have done is not unusual :
"You know how it is. There’s something you really, really need to do — go out for a run, or get to work on a homework assignment, or start writing the next post in your blog, or get down to your meditation practice — but before you do it you’ll just have a cup of coffee, or check one more article online, or… my goodness, is that a cobweb over there? I really must do some tidying!
We’ve all been there. The mind sets up resistances and finds excuses to avoid doing what you think you should be doing. And this applies to meditation as well. You suddenly find all these other things that seem intensely compelling, and before you know it there’s no time left for your practice.
You may even be aware — intensely aware — of the fact you’re engaged in avoidance maneuvers, and you torture yourself as you indulge in a constant stream of distractions in order to stay off the cushion. You feel the power of the thought, “I should be meditating — I need to meditate,” at the same time as you experience an even more powerful feeling that you just don’t want to. Not yet. Not now. It’s very painful.
Even when your meditation practice is a source of great pleasure, you can find yourself avoiding it. Even when you know that your life it immeasurably richer, happier, and more fulfilled when you meditate regularly, you can find yourself avoiding the cushion . Even when you’ve promised yourself you’ll meditate every day, you find yourself avoiding that darned cushion!
There must be reasons of course, and we can end up torturing ourselves by engaging in psychoanalysis. Sure, there may be some part of ourselves that doesn’t want to change ( added from myself : hence some self-sabotage) . Sure, it may be that we’re avoiding some kind of painful experience ( added from myself : I am at a stage where I want all the "crap" dealt with, to face whatever is causing problem and just sort it out) . Sure, we may be reacting to the fact that we’re using too many “shoulds” in our life and subtly or not so subtly coercing ourselves to meditate. We can spend hours coming up with such theories, and often we feel a bit happier once we’ve come up with a story that might explain why we’re not meditating, but the thing is, we’re still not meditating. We’re just involved in a slightly more refined way of avoiding meditation."
http://www.wildmind.org/applied/daily-life/dealing-with-resistance
Now, maybe the intensity of the meditation ( 5hrs/day) might have starting to bring up the real stuff I am showing resistances to. Had I done less hours daily,may be the resistance will have taken more time to show up. So yep, 5hrs daily is about right to get down to business quickly.
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