Testimonies - Jesus

Dear Good1

Your posts are off-topic.
This thread is Jesus testimonies.

Please start your own thread for your off-topic posts.

Blessings
 
Atheist Prays and sees Jesus

eventually I got tired of it. (24/7 attack),,

I went into my room the most important thing that's
ever happened went into my room it was nighttime close the door I just started
praying/

I knew the thoughts that I were thinking were broken I said Jesus heal
my mind my heart feels like a hundred pound ton weight heart you know my soul heal my body heal
this place I just got praying that over and over

heal my mind.
heal my heart,
heal my body,
heal my soul,
heal this place.

I just kept praying that

all of a sudden traveling in on this beam of light
floating in on this beam of light I see Jesus.

in floats in through my window
and BOOM
rays of glory!
rays of Awesomeness!
rays of purity!
rays of majesty!
rays of holiness!

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they don't know we're talking about like
I didn't know what I was talking about
telling telling people I didn't know God
I no idea or God didn't exist I've seen
Jesus I've talked to God man and he's
lives he's awesome and if you are saved
and I love hearing the testimonies and
what God's doing

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aquarian1 said:
Dear Good1

Your posts are off-topic.
This thread is Jesus testimonies.

Please start your own thread for your off-topic posts.

Blessings
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There are three posts. Two are similar. One is different. The one that is different most resembles a "testimony" relating to an experience adjacent to the name of Jesus, that is, a personal account of an experience, leading to many years adjacent to the name of Jesus. It is my own experience. So, if that's not a "Jesus Testimony" then what is? Why don't you let the reader decide if that's a "Jesus testimony" or not? If not, what do YOU say a "Jesus testimony" is?

As for the two prior posts (prior to my own experience), they too are as Jesus adjacent as my own, except they are other peoples experiences with their own experience with the name of Jesus, and the life they've lived since then. It appears to me that you are posting other peoples experiences adjacent to the name of Jesus so i thought it fair that i could do the same. Again, if their experience adjacent to the name of Jesus is not a "Jesus testimony", then what is? Again, why don't you let the reader decide?

What is your objection, exactly? Is it an objection to the interpretation of my (also their) experience?

If you are planning to have moderators delete this thread, let us know ahead of time so that any valuable information can be copied and pasted into a new thread.
 
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Jesus testimonies are people's stories of what Jesus has done for them in their lives.

(The words "Jesus" or "testimony" do not make the post a Jesus testimony.)

Please start your own thread with your off-topic posts and of course copy your posts there - should you choose to.
 

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well I'm a Catholic, maybe I should go back to church.
I went to a priest and started asking questions like why do I feel like this existential crisis of feeling like death is just on my door?
Why do I feel so much anxiety why do I feel like I'm being suffocated?
Why do I feel this physical feeling of s almost as if I'm about to go to hell?

When I asked it almost felt like the priest didn't know himself and he would just say to me you know you just got to keep praying you just got to keep you know seeking God.

I was like I don't know what that means though and so I didn't really feel like that helped my situation
.............
started to think and I'm like well I've never really read the Bible before maybe there's something in here that I need that can
maybe help answer my question
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it got to a point where I started to understand the Bible started to understand what prayer meant started to really understand that God is there because he loves us he wants to be a part of our lives and we have to let him in
.............
I just heard an audible voice say "she's going through things that you might not understand".
I was very thrown back I didn't expect to hear a response I felt like I was just kind of like talking to myself but little did I know someone
was listening and so when I started hearing that I just kept asking questions and I would just hear the voice again respond or communicate and it felt like such a friendship felt like such a it felt
it kept me at ease and I was just stunned and II think that's why I got more and more curious about it cuz I finally felt like someone was there to truly hear me out
...........
I started to read that Jesus always wanted us to be like him be giving be loving be there for those
who are in need and so I started to see that I was not treating my family the way that Jesus would
have wanted me to so I started to reflect started asking the Lord how do you want me to be with them ?

he would start
to tell me I want you to start showing them love I want you to ask how their day is going I want
you to give them hugs and tell tell them that you love them and I want you to just give it without
any form of expectation that you're going to get something back
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and it was so interesting because at one point without me even talking about it or me even
bringing it up to them my parents start to fall in love again and they start to see that maybe God
doesn't want them to get divorced after 20 plus years of being married together I was so shocked
because after years and years of seeing them fight and be at each other's throat and just talking so
badly about one another I never would have thought that they would fall back in love again and it got
to the point where they they told all the lawyers after years of a struggle of a back and forth with
the court and figuring out a settlement they they told them all like we don't want to get a divorce
no more wow we're done like we we want to we want to stay together we love each other and I I was
shocked and I was like God this is what you were meaning this is why you wanted me to keep going
...........
accepted to this college and I'm praying to you now God I'm asking you if you want me to go I'll go but I do not want to go if you do not want me there I know this is going to be in a completely different state I know that you've done so much work here with me and my family.

What do you want me to do God?
...........
I start to see a vision where the Lord shows me that I was in a place in a city that was blown to smithereens. he's showing me that there are people my age that are similar and I see myself guiding them and God ends up telling me you're going to end up going to a place that is so lost in their own ways that you're going to guide people to Christ people your age to Christ and I was just so stunned at the confirmation that God was like I want you to go to this college I want you to go to Illinois
..........
now they (hies family) want to seek God and now that they're going
to church more and now they're giving themselves to Christ and I'm just seeing this and I'm just
so stunned because it's like God is not done and I mean perhaps someone out there is going through
a similar struggle and you cannot think that God for a second has left you cuz he is just
continuously working in my life and every day I see more and more of just how great he is and the
way he saved me
.............

Who is Jesus to you?

Jesus to me is my best friend he's the reason why I'm alive today because to be honest I don't think without him I would be here today.
............
I've been in part of churches that have zero
connection zero Community but I started to notice that those churches that are truly seeking God the
community just shows just who God is and a lot of the people I went to church with they were
so loving and so kind they were always inviting me to come hang out with them I would tell them
about a situation that was minor about school and the next time I would see them they'd be like hey
like how's your how's your classes going like I know you talked about struggling in that test
like did you do better this time like do you need any help and they were so giving and so
selfless I felt like that shaves so much of my faith because I owe these people nothing but yet
they give a lot to me
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I've been there where I feel a church where it just doesn't feel
connective but there are churches out there that people are just so in love with God that you just
feel the love through their actions through their words and those those churches I encourage you
to go go to cuz they're out there
..........

Prayer

Heavenly Father ,
I come to you today Lord I want to pray for those who may not be in
the best of places right now Lord perhaps they haven't been able to speak to you for a while or
perhaps they don't know you yet but I pray Lord Jesus that you're able to come into their life
you're able to help them guide them protect them Comfort them Lord Jesus give them a sense of Peace
allow them to see how great you are Lord allow them to feel the love that you have for them Lord
protect them from things of the world from things that they don't understand allow them to gain
wisdom knowing of your greatness Lord and may you be able to use their life Lord so that they can be
able to help those in need Lord Jesus you are so great you are so beautiful and we thank you Lord
that you have created these people Lord may they fully be able to reach their potential through you
Lord and may you guide them throughout their life.

amen
 
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aquarian1 said:
Jesus testimonies are people's stories of what Jesus has done for them in their lives.

(The words "Jesus" or "testimony" do not make the post a Jesus testimony.)

Please start your own thread with your off-topic posts and of course copy your posts there - should you choose to.
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Oh, it appears you hadn't had time to actually read my testimony. For those who missed it, here is the main part which aligns with what @aquarian1 has said above about "what Jesus has done for them in their lives":



Good1 said:
Good1's Testimony
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Raised Catholic. Didn't really like going to church but we had to, at least till ages 16 or 17 at which point i kept my distance as an agnostic. Age 20-22 Bible-based Fundamental Evangelical Christian. Age 22-34 Catholic by choice as an adult including an additional "catechism" course. Age 34-46 agnostic. Age 46-60 Reconstruction Christ-ist with emphasis on the priority of knowledge over faith.

Technically, i can only claim to know one thing: This is not my home.

Everything else is concordant with this with a consistency of argument.

It takes time to construct with consistency. Reconstruction is the opposite of deconstruction, which is the modern term for Christians who are taking the time to dismantle a complex frame of beliefs they had constructed before. Except reconstruction is done more carefully, with the caution of an agnostic. It's the construction of a world view as well as a self-view. Reconstruction involves a re-estimation of the self. Re-estimation, re-esteem, and re-deem and redemption are synonyms.

"This is not my home" came to me when i was 20. It was a wordless message, like mental telepathy, that just dawned upon my mind as i slept and woke up in the morning. It was just there, like the dew on the grass. It was the first time i felt a need to re-estimate (re-esteem, redeem) my self. It's not something i could have learned through any books, and till then, i had not heard of any such thing. I mean, i had not heard that my home, my place of origin, and my place of belonging, was beyond this world. That was the general weight of the message, which i will now call a seed of knowledge.

Along with the weight of the message came the feeling that the world around me, people places and things, seems a bit more ephemeral...a little more cartoonish...a little contrived...a little artificial. The sky was bluer. The grass was greener. It was generally a good feeling that came on strong and gradually faded away over the course of about three weeks.

This experience initiated a quest to know more about what "this" is, and what "home" was. It took 26 years to finally grok, what "this" and "home" were. Or maybe it just took 26 years to accept it. In hindsight, resistance to acceptance began within days. But i did take radical steps to press further down that road.

When this happened, i was playing in two different bands, both with prospects of getting paid for professional work. I was nine years into a hoped for career as a musician. One of the bands was going to play in local lounges, the other was giving free concerts just to warm up. Within days, i quit these bands and joined a local evangelical bible based church on the corner of a small town. My choice for that was partly influenced by the fact that a prior band mate had also quit music a couple years earlier and had joined this church, which was co-pastored by his older brother.

I'm only mentioning this to emphasize the potency of this, what i call a seed of knowledge, in its power to cause someone so dedicated to one direction in life, to suddenly drop everything and reprioritize in another direction, and to keep that direction until another cue ball came and collided with that direction.

What i now call a seed of knowledge, the little church on the corner called being "born again". So began my simultaneous journey of curiosity, and also a journey of resistance, non-acceptance, and fear.
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So here again is @aquarian1's requirement for being on-topic:

aquarian1 said:
Jesus testimonies are people's stories of what Jesus has done for them in their lives.
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So what Jesus did for me is he responded to a prayer, addressed to him, that i recited at age 20. The response was totally unexpected and was more than i expected. But i did expect something, or else it was going to be the last prayer i ever said in this lifetime.

"This is not my home" dawned on my mind overnight, in response. When i awoke in the morning i felt like a foreigner in this world. I had a strong feeling that i had come here, from somewhere else, far beyond the stars, and even before the stars. I call this feeling a "knowing". And, because it reminds me so much of the Parable of the Sower, i call it a "seed of knowledge".

I have to reiterate that this knowing did not tell me to join any churches, nor did it tell me to quit any bands that i was playing in at that time (dropping my career cold turkey). Nor did it tell me to buy a bible, nor to believe in anything in the bible.

But, i must say, it did guide me out of the churches by helping me hold true to it's principle with much more loyalty than was demanded by a complex net of beliefs that people had constructed out of the bible.

After leaving the churches and the bible i was standing there as an agnostic. But i still had this memory of this knowing experience as the strongest foundation i ever had in this lifetime. I just didn't know what to do with it...until, after 12 years of agnosticism, i stumbled upon new information, by being the same person i always was: a curious reader.

For 12 years i read anything that anybody had to say about Jesus, good, bad or indifferent. I would just make a little mental note of what was said, and let it simmer on the backburner of the stove of contemplation. A couple of mentions were tempting indeed, but i never jumped head first into anything.

Then i found a source of information that finally confirmed what i had known, This Is Not My Home. This source added a lot of other corroborating information which made a lot of sense to me. For the first time in my life, something made sense with the axioms i had adopted up till then. So i took these concepts on board, and developed my own way of explaining the concept of Jesus, and of Christ, and have taken the time to share some of that here at Elite Trader.

The source of this new information derives from the work of Jesus over the last, say, 40 years, and especially in the last 20 years. So it's been available ever since i began my own journey 40 years ago. But @aquarian1 says that this 40 years of journey and experience and contemplation and study and wisdom is "off topic".

But because of this new acquisition, made in the last 12 years, my state of mind is much more grounded and stable. It's probably it has saved me from a lot of trouble, possibly even the trouble of going to jail for harms done to me. I don't have any fear of god, God, Christ or any earthly spiritual so-called authority.

When it comes to god, that is, the God which makes this world, i don't have any more fear than any atheist and often agree with statements from lights like Christopher Hitchens. In practice, i don't believe in any such god any more than they do. So, to my relief, i don't feel any need to defend the god of this world from all the acrimony directed at it.

Also, i don't struggle with the concept of evil like most religions do which bash their heads against the wall trying to affirm the legitimacy of the god of this world (the god which makes this world). I have solved the question of evil and have answered it in the only way i can be answered, and still maintain that god is Good.

Also, i no longer carry the weight of my shoulders which sees others as others. That is, i no longer drag around the concept of me-saved-them-going-to-hell. We are all in the same boat, some more advanced than others, closer to reaching the shore that Jesus reached long ago.

I no longer worry about who is being saved as we all look out upon the landscape of bad actors like Hitler and Stalin and modern US Democrats. It is an extremely heavy weight to carry, trying to justify the salvation of some people, while trying to condemn the dictators (puffed up with their own authoritarian totalitarian narcissism) the world has known so painfully. And that is simply because i do not allow for any person to be saved, not even my own persona. This itself is yet another heavy weight off my shoulders. I only care about the salvation of Christ. This lightens the load quite a bit. I only worry about my progress i the acceptance of my part in the divine Christ, so-called. And not just a part, but the entire Kingdom, so-called.

I no longer care so much about what people think of me. This too is a heavy burden off the shoulders. I save tons of time not going to church to virtue signal my place in an awkward culture. I no longer feel the need to congregate at all with others to help confirm a complex set of beliefs. The concept of death no longer stings as much as it did before.

Arguably, all this relief of weight on my mind has opened up the necessary bandwidth to come up with my own way of trading the markets. I don't need trading gurus anymore.

So these are examples of what Jesus has done for my so-called "life" through that gift of knowing that This Is Not My Home.

 
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Aaron do you have any last words for anyone watching ?

I got words for two different type of people:
so the first people would be the Christian
the question I know we prayed his prayer and we believe that when we pray this prayer that that's
just it like I got my ticket oh I got my I'm not gonna go to hell I'm gonna go be with God but I
would say honestly a lot of times we depend on like you know the Sunday or the pastor to preach
this gospel and or preach whatever message they preaching and we felt like because we feel good
that he is good but when you

Really think about what Jesus said like why you call me Lord Lord if you don't do what I say?

he said he looking for followers follow us and ask yourself that question
are you really a follower because he even talked about people going in that last day people won't
say Lord Lord then I prophesy then I cast that was out of your name did not work these miracles
in your name and he's gonna get her we're gonna say get away from me

I never knew you
I never was intimate with you
you ain't put me first in your decisions
you ain't a liar your purpose is with my will

you just did these things so that people can see that you can do them I wasn't Lord I was
just you get out of hell [ticket]

why would you want to be with me when you never was with me?
why would you want to enter into my rest and my kingdom when you wasn't already focused on the cake
how
you want my benefits but you don't want me

I would say you know repentance is the most
beautiful word that you can ever

see repentance is a beautiful word don't look at it like John
the Baptist even when he was saying repad that was love that was love I don't care how ugly he
looked how much dreadlocks whatever you look like that was love so yeah

I would say that to the believer make sure you really you know make sure you really a disciple make sure you really operate in the sonship

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I would say to the unbeliever this:

We both know the cause ain't fulfilling you the houses ain't fulfilling you the clothes ain't fulfilling you your life ain't been fulfilled you almost feel like a fish out of water you feel like a bird that can't fly you know something that's missing.

I knew something was missing my whole life I knew it I knew it I knew I was creative for more you know you created for more but the thing but the thing is if a man don't have Jesus a woman don't have Jesus we self-destruct and we smash
everything about everything about our life and we we live outside of our purpose and we just consistently keep going for more.

And then what we're about to die we asking people for prayer are we asking people for all these different things we want to start connecting to God and you feel like you know something missing

so I would just say to any unbeliever like

recognize like the biggest problem with mankind is sin us waking up every day for our own purpose
so because

the biggest problem with mankind is sin Jesus came to deal with that so that we can be right and right back in relationship with God the Father

hand just died so we can go to heaven he died so we can be back in Covenant and back in relationship with God the Father you don't have that relationship with God don't deceive Yourself by thinking this we can acknowledge Him at times God made he made a way and he made a way through Christ Jesus and that opportunity is right here for you today like you can have the Lord and the Lord can have you and you can be fulfilled in everything I honestly can tell you right now when I had my encounter with the Lord I didn't have everything I didn't have it all together I felt like I had a trillion dollar check that I couldn't care I didn't understand what was going on with me I felt I got everything all this peace all this Joy everything that you missing.

So I would say I'm not going to say give Jesus a try I'm gonna say give him your life and follow him because you don't know what you missing
 
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