gmst,
With all due respect, here are some tough questions.
1) With the kind of experience you have now - you are clearly not a complete newbie any longer and have been doing this for some time now - how is it even possible to lose 50% in a single week save a market crash?
Was this loss because you lost an incredible amount of points and overtraded or because you are way overleveraged? Or a combination?
2) Why are you risking this kind of money without being properly prepared? You have a 26K account, but did not even bother to buy one cheap extra LCD screen before you started? What`s the rush? I have one laptop for backup and two 22" for my workstation and I could need more space, only for ES trading.
3) Why don`t you follow your plan? Is it a poor one?
4) How can one single missed trade mess with your psyche for one complete trading week? The market offers an ample amount of swings up and down every trading day. Each day offers opportunity. You need an objective methodology to exploit the daily swings. Free from emotional content. If one missed trade fucked up your whole week, it tells me that your methodology is not good enough. At least take time off the next time you notice that a 10 point lost trade destabilize you. And remember, hindsight is always 20/20. You don`t know if you would have exploited those points if you were present.
5) What will you say to your family and friends about this loss considering you raised money from them? How can you defend continuing to trade at this point? Would you have given yourself money to manage at this point? Answer honestly.
If anything, you should not trade on Monday or next week. Even Marty Schwartz took time off after a destabilizing loss. It`s necessary. It took me a long time and a lot of lost money to learn this.
6) Why do you average down? It is a losing strategy and poor arithmetic. If anything, add to a winner.
7) Do you think posting in the ES journal during market hours adds or takes from your trading performance?
At this point, I think your best bet is a TST combine. Lose $150-300 instead of the rest of your account.
Better yet, take the time to prepare yourself and create a reliable methodology. Losing days should not be a part of it, much less losing weeks. Even consider spending 10K on research and software development to create something that is really good. You can come a long way with that and the funding is there when you`re ready.
Good luck!
Regards,
LF
Quote from gmst:
What a week! Lost half my account. It is clear that I have jumped with the larger account without tying all the losing ends. This week has set-me back by a long period. Positive thing is that I got hit in the face in the first week itself. This weekend - my sole focus is to tighten all the losing ends. I am also going to buy a new 18" or 20" monitor that will give me more space. Currently I have only one 14.1" laptop screen.
Many mistakes this week:
1) Missed one easy 10 point long ES trade on Monday since I was away from my desk. Affected my psyche for the rest of the week.
2) I entered way too soon before getting a proper signal. Would have made money instead of losing had I been more patient before entering long on ES on W,Th and Friday.
3) My plan calls for only RTH trading, but I traded post AAPL release and on another day also. So, I didn't follow my plan. I will rate this as my biggest mistake for this week.
4) I think 2nd biggest mistake was that on some trades, I used double the margin compared to what I should have used. This is because I didn't have my xl margin calculator opened.
My aim for the next 4 weeks is to just run the account with as much care as possible. My goal is to achieve 0 mistakes over the next 4 weeks. I will make many changes in my trading process/environment this weekend and do a follow up post sometime over the next 2 days. My account stands at 13k now. I will stop trading if the account reaches 4k, withdraw that capital and close the account. This will be my stop point.