Quote from Spydertrader:
Nobody should ask for the [bundlemaker] post to be deleted. If I am in error, I will admit so, and apologize.
- Spydertrader
Dear Spyder,
I make lots and lots and lots of mistakes. Some might consider my life an abject failure. In some ways I think it is. It would be a lie for me to say that I'm anything other than in selfish mode. You owe none of us, and me in particular nothing.
You may not believe me, but nothing of what I have said or typed is for any reason other than me struggling to learn. Like a wounded animal, I degenerate to my lowest state, that being one of confrontation.
I only posted the small snippet that I did because I felt posting the whole thing was not fair to you. As you clearly wish me to post it I will. Give me a few minutes to convert the file from PCM (raw audio) to MP3. The entire TWO HOURS you spent with me (this in nothing but incredibly generous) was recoreded in 2 or 3 separate files. I post the file in question, let me know if it would be useful for the others.
I DO NOT want an apology. None is owed me. I take no offense. I wish to move on, preferably with this group and with you.
Likewise, if you interpret your words differently that I (and others) I simply ask that I not be expunged from this learning experience and that perhaps you might be just a tiny bit more open to really hearing what I'm saying instead of assuming it's all just a big loop in my head. Much is, I hope some isn't.
THe full file is on it's way. Again, this is being posted with the understanding that this is not a court room and no one is being convicted. No one.
Thank you for your openess.
