I have to say I am getting very pleased with the psychological work. 
I feel really blessed to have the chance of really removing from
myself any seeds of any negative feeling and emotion.
Yes, indeed, it takes a LOT of courage to work on one's negative emotions
and feelings. It was indeed so much easy to feel anger , and rage, instead
of looking into myself and removing the real roots of these negative emotions.
First time in my life I felt anger and rage ? That was hard to determine to be honest.
And yes, not everybody is blessed enough to be able to do that:
It is not an easy work. But thank you for showing me the way.
I have been extremely motivated to do the work on myself.
To be honest, I am really glad that I was made to understand that
" it is important
to do the work on yourself to remove the negative emotions and
feelings, as you certainly do not want to become a monster.
Sooner or later what is inside someone is reflected on their face ".
These are the ten non-virtues I have to study in detail :
* Slander leads to Gossip
* Gossip leads to Harsh Speech
* Harsh Speech leads to Covetousness
* Covetousness leads to Ill Will
* Ill Will leads to Heresy
The questions I have :
- escuses/reasons/justifications, a person would use to commit
the ten non-virtues.
- how each non-virtue is due to a previous non-virtue.
And, you are right : the most difficult is to forgive, and wish peace, love and happiness to those I first felt rage towards. Indeed, you are right : God knows more than I do. And who knows if this experience was necessary for me to clean up the real roots of my own negative emotions and feelings, and really develop some real inside beauty.
Not easy to understand, and again thank you for showing me what I need to work on : not revenge, not retribution, BUT myself.
First day in my life, I had the seed of revenge in myself?
First day in my life where I learned about slandering, Gossip, Harsh Speech, Covetousness, Ill Will, Heresy ?
Much harder to face than just complaining about the recent past.
I feel really blessed to have the chance of really removing from
myself any seeds of any negative feeling and emotion.
Yes, indeed, it takes a LOT of courage to work on one's negative emotions
and feelings. It was indeed so much easy to feel anger , and rage, instead
of looking into myself and removing the real roots of these negative emotions.
First time in my life I felt anger and rage ? That was hard to determine to be honest.
And yes, not everybody is blessed enough to be able to do that:
It is not an easy work. But thank you for showing me the way.
I have been extremely motivated to do the work on myself.
To be honest, I am really glad that I was made to understand that
" it is important
to do the work on yourself to remove the negative emotions and
feelings, as you certainly do not want to become a monster.
Sooner or later what is inside someone is reflected on their face ".
These are the ten non-virtues I have to study in detail :
* Slander leads to Gossip
* Gossip leads to Harsh Speech
* Harsh Speech leads to Covetousness
* Covetousness leads to Ill Will
* Ill Will leads to Heresy
The questions I have :
- escuses/reasons/justifications, a person would use to commit
the ten non-virtues.
- how each non-virtue is due to a previous non-virtue.
And, you are right : the most difficult is to forgive, and wish peace, love and happiness to those I first felt rage towards. Indeed, you are right : God knows more than I do. And who knows if this experience was necessary for me to clean up the real roots of my own negative emotions and feelings, and really develop some real inside beauty.
Not easy to understand, and again thank you for showing me what I need to work on : not revenge, not retribution, BUT myself.
First day in my life, I had the seed of revenge in myself?
First day in my life where I learned about slandering, Gossip, Harsh Speech, Covetousness, Ill Will, Heresy ?
Much harder to face than just complaining about the recent past.
