Hello:
I have been looking at your chart, and I have read your first post.
You say the right things. Unfortunately, at this point in your career, you lack discipline, patience and good judgement.
You can obtain these things, but to do so you may need to take a step backward. In my estimation this is a good time for you to paper trade. Unlike the many "pretend" traders who post here you might benefit from pretending to trade IF you keep your focus and you know WHY you are doing it. In this instance, I think you need to papertrade (and keep good records) so that you can learn
1. To wait patiently for your signal to trade (to control your emotions)
2. To put on the postion
3. To wait patiently for your signal to exit
4. To evaluate your results
Based on what I read, if you continue to act as you have, you will eventually blow up your account.
I probably won't be checking back with you, but you can read some of my posts and make your own mind up, using the search function at the top of the home page.
I wish you well.
Steve