A very short story about myself. I had a 3 year trading career with a prop firm that eventually closed its doors in late 2003. I recorded 31 out of 36 profitable months in this span. However I had a very hard time in 2003, made very little money month-to-month before losing 1/4 of the year's profit in 15 minutes.
You can call me stupid but that particular hit, along with the bankrupcy of my firm, along with what was a disaster year compared to my all time best 2002 (although I still barely made average American annual income in 2003, it wasn't worth the risk as I felt I was walking on razor's edge all year), destroyed my confidence. I can not answer the question "why didn't you join another firm?", because I don't know the answer to this question myself. I guess I had serious doubts about the viability of trading as a life time career. I had serious doubts about my ability to suceed as a trader as the strategies I relied upon went down one after the other. I chose to take a break, could be the worst mistake I ever made in life, could be a blessing in disguise, I would never know.
Last two years I attempted numerous jobs in different industries (and needless to say, none of them were anywhere nearly as enjoyable as trading, although they were quite harmless and stress free), I worked on my degree. I don't know why I escaped from the market, but I did. I "unplugged" myself from the market.
There are things in life that once you put down, you will never be able to pickup again. But last night I had a dream, I saw the tickers, tapes, charts, and symbols that I often dreamed of when I traded. I even saw the traders I worked with in my old firm, and this morning I had to call people up. Some of them are still working in the industry, others moved onto other things.
Whether this was a moment of truth or a moment of clarity, I am curious what you guys think of the market. Especially those of you that traded for 5+ years. I am referring to intraday volatility / trading volume in general.
You can call me stupid but that particular hit, along with the bankrupcy of my firm, along with what was a disaster year compared to my all time best 2002 (although I still barely made average American annual income in 2003, it wasn't worth the risk as I felt I was walking on razor's edge all year), destroyed my confidence. I can not answer the question "why didn't you join another firm?", because I don't know the answer to this question myself. I guess I had serious doubts about the viability of trading as a life time career. I had serious doubts about my ability to suceed as a trader as the strategies I relied upon went down one after the other. I chose to take a break, could be the worst mistake I ever made in life, could be a blessing in disguise, I would never know.
Last two years I attempted numerous jobs in different industries (and needless to say, none of them were anywhere nearly as enjoyable as trading, although they were quite harmless and stress free), I worked on my degree. I don't know why I escaped from the market, but I did. I "unplugged" myself from the market.
There are things in life that once you put down, you will never be able to pickup again. But last night I had a dream, I saw the tickers, tapes, charts, and symbols that I often dreamed of when I traded. I even saw the traders I worked with in my old firm, and this morning I had to call people up. Some of them are still working in the industry, others moved onto other things.
Whether this was a moment of truth or a moment of clarity, I am curious what you guys think of the market. Especially those of you that traded for 5+ years. I am referring to intraday volatility / trading volume in general.
