seriously, stop trading right now. go back to play money and create a strategy that does not involve mindless averaging.
Averaging is either laziness or lack of talent- 'i think price will rally today but im not talented enough to identify a good possible reversal point if the market sells off on bad news, so ill just keep buying it all day as it moves down and *hopefully* it will rebound *at some point*.'
you will have alot of breakeven days or small profit days with this strategy, even some big winners, but risk reward will often be awful.
one day, it may be next week or it may be in a couple of years time you will get in deep and the price will capitulate against you, and you will wipe your account in one day.
this is what my thought process was today after US sold off ES on open:
1) is my technical read, skip to 2) for general day method and 3) is specific price action method
1) 'i think price is likely to rally hard at some point today as this recent selling dip over last few days looks unconvincing on the 1hr charts. also my gut tells me this breakout of the trading range last week is a false break and buyers will be hitting things hard this week. we had a big downmove last friday and then 2 range days with alot of betting on both directions. today or tomorrow we may have a bigger directional move')
2) 'i will buy the 1320 pivot if price moves down to it. i will usually not buy any higher, if it reverses earlier i will miss the move and not care. (i will NEVER enter early just *so i dont miss out* on the move then average down to 1320). i go for fringe entries to ensure i get good turning point prices. sometimes i may buy a 80% type retracement that is above a pivot if price action looks really nice. the downside to this is i miss alot of moves that reverse sooner. i dont care.'
3) ES rallied on figures pre open. sold off hard at US open. this downmove is large and quite violent, i enter at 1320 with a very tight stop, either 8- or -12. i dont allow a larger stop so i dont get faked out, since fast moves like this into an area i like usually either capitulate through or rebound nicely. if we break below were done, no averaging since i have no idea how far down it will run if im wrong about this bounce.
Part 1) is unique to each person but your parts 2) and 3) should be closer to mine. Until then i would recommend going back to play money.
Sorry for the long post, hope its helpful.
Seriously, every1 has to learn the hard way (i blew out a fair bit of money as a newbie). but i only averaged down to 4 contracts at my worst. you are doing 16 already. if u continue the best thing is if u blow ur 50k now. then u will learn through pain. continue and get lucky and u may face the pain in a years time for 100s of k...
good luck