Hi,
I think your concerns and feelings are legitimate and I wouldn't pay too much attention to the people in this thread who are not in your shoes.
I'm curious - at what point did you start having these feelings? Just now? Or all the time?
How much are you making? Are you barely getting by or are you very successful? Could you become more motivated by becoming more ambitious? Scale up and try more markets? Even hire someone to trade your systems? Learning to program or some new trading skill? Getting your own office? Mentoring someone?
How about setting a goal of funding some charity through your trading profits? Or even doing some volunteer work on the side? Would that be meaningful?
I've had a variety of professions including engineer which you listed and I've had the feeling you have in all of them. Doing something 'meaningful' have been a motivation for many of my choices. It's a big reason I became an engineer intead of studying business (actually, I have a degree there also). But I can tell you that the feeling of 'meaningless' and the question "Shouldn't there be more to life than this? Is this it?" usually comes pretty fast for me in all those fields. It usually feels less meaningful than you think. Maybe being a doctor and actually saving lives would feel different?
Since trading is a lonely profession and essentially 'meaningless' in and of itself, I think it's an occupation which enhances these kind of feelings. It's also a possibillity that some of us are predisposed to this kind of thinking and search for some deeper meaning where others don't.
So, maybe see if some of my advice on expanding your trading can help you OR try to consider your trading as simply income (which is what jobs are to most people) and find something else to give you meaning.
Good luck!![]()
I'm glad there are still some thoughtful, introspective members on ET still remaining where we can learn from one another and I am certain those are the consistently profitable ones because they have the right personality traits for this business.
"I'm curious - at what point did you start having these feelings? Just now? Or all the time?"
I have started feeling like this for the last year or so - it's especially bad on low vol days which we've had the last 2 months or so (nothing worse waiting around for my edge to appear watching Bloomberg or reading the news. I post on Twitter quite often on slow days to keep occupied and share what I have learned over the 10 years) that time could be used to build something - but then again that is on me to figure out.
"How much are you making? Are you barely getting by or are you very successful? Could you become more motivated by becoming more ambitious? Scale up and try more markets? Even hire someone to trade your systems? Learning to program or some new trading skill? Getting your own office? Mentoring someone?"
I am doing quite well and I have been gradually scaling up the contracts over the months/years - my trading is almost automatic now but not automated. I have always wanted to learn how to program and let the program do the trading but the more I read and listen to traders like Marcos Lopez De Prado - a genius in my opinion - for retail traders it's best to oversee our own systems besides my trading is so simple now I don't think it will ever need to be programmed. And yes, I have mentored a few newbies and that actually feels good.
It's strange I should feel this way given that I grew up in a developing country where my family's life was modest compared to the life I live in the US. Not to mention the sheer hell I went through for the first 5 years or so learning to trade on my own without a mentor, that learning period should make me forever grateful that I actually crossed the threshold that many never will. But I am not hurting for money, my wife has a great job and we are financially responsible. And no, I am not prone to depression and feeling sorry for myself - I am fairly active, lift weights, long bike rides, swim etc.
I am glad we are sharing our stories obviously all of us have had different life experiences which have led us to the moment where we are but then again if all of us saw the world the same way, the market would only trend in one direction and no one would make any money
