Don't be too discouraged, you are learning and that costs something. I would definitely go to trading only 1 contract. When you are sitting looking at the charts you might feel like you should be in the markket all the time - which is a mistake of us beginners . When you have the urge to put on a bet, but not a good enough reason, papertrade it instead as a way of learning instead of risking money.
I personally like NQ better because of its spiky nature(I scalp) but if you are patient (I am not) then Es gives sure stops which can cut losses
I personally like NQ better because of its spiky nature(I scalp) but if you are patient (I am not) then Es gives sure stops which can cut losses