No I don't blame the firm or the split. While I do think the office environment had me focusing too much on very small time frames, my problem was more-so my lack of funding and my fear of failure / desire to succeed.
During that entire year of trading, I did not hold overnight once. Not one single swing trade, because I was petrified to hold even 100 shares overnight.
Anyway, that trader is dead. I now laugh at some of the stuff I was doing. What I mean is, while I'm confident the majority of the trade ideas were actually good, it is amusing how I handled them. Is that style of trading potentially successful. Hell yes it is, but I am not in the financial position to play that game. At this point, even if I were in a strong financial position, I would only commit 10% max to that style.
The pure day trading days are done. I am much more of a market player now, with select day trades, the stuff that is too good. More of a portfolio man, setting money out with different agendas.
An example of the different me, take FB. In the past I would have just logged in each morning and waited for an intraday setup, desparate for a way to be involved, often unable to take advantage of my negative bias on the stock. Today, I would take a step back, and assess the situation. Build expectations, and then the stock reacts as I predict, I build a plan to get involved. Much more of a price point person. The only patterns I need involve the behavior at price points. I'm in no rush, I'm relaxed and calm.
The most important step in getting to the next level is admitting my faults. I am humble and the criticism / feedback are important. Again, that approach taught me a lot, and I do not regret it. Now it is time to define my real edges and find the game that actually suits me.
Anyway, I'm not here to prove a difference, I am here for donations. Those who donate will not receive a return on their investment, only the satisfaction of being a generous benefactor of a great cause.
I did just get my new trading computer set up, so the demo-ing begins soon. My journal is coming back soon. The verdict is coming. In the meantime, I need to build capital.
I've been learning java recently, starting to get into programming so that I can get automated. I know java is the wrong language, but I'll get to C soon enough. Baby steps, but let me tell you, a $25k donation would be sweet.